My stepdaughter Jenna passed away suddenly on 12/6/23. She was autistic and living in a group home. She was thriving and had friends and purpose. She has been in my life for 21 years. I could not have loved her more!!! She was my best friend and we talked everyday. We still don’t know what happened. We think it was a sudden cardiac death due to her medications. I just can’t seem to find purpose in my life. Everything I did was for her and I miss her every single second of every single day. It just seems so unreal so in fair. I really done know how to go on without her. Does anyone else feel th ..read more

My partner died 12 weeks ago and I am struggling big time without her, we been together for 15 years and now I have nothing left ..read more

Lost my grandma..was hoping my sister and I could get over our diffrences for the funeral instead she told me to leave my grandmas home and I missed the funeral I feel no closure at all..fight was over she tries to be more like my mom since my mom passed she told me I couldnt have my parents stuff till I showed her proof I was in a stable relationship yet shes 38 with a 20 year old yet she always downs me nothing I do is right..paid my house off she hates my neighbor hood paid my cars off there not brand new I work 100 hours a week not good enough college done that to..then everyday its like h ..read more

Is it wrong and selfish to grieve?? Shouldn't I be happy that they're gone and possibly not hurting? That they don't have to deal with the world, depression, financially, mentally, emotionally, physically, emotionally, struggling?? Missing and grieving feels narcissistic and selfish. It feels all about me instead of them ..read more

When a heart breaks, you’re left gasping for air. After a while you seem fine, yet fall apart unexpectedly at random moments, sanity seemingly forsaken. There’s a saying that when a heart breaks, it cracks to allow golden love to shine through onto others. Do you see the value in going through this? It may not feel like it now, but grief is an honor. It is an honor to feel that much, to have loved that much. It teaches you compassion, gratitude, resilience, and the importance of grabbing life by the horns and truly living. It is not easy to go through, but remember the pai ..read more

Over the past 2-1/2 years, I have lost my eldest son to cancer, my best friend of 65 years to cancer, and my mom to COVID in a nursing home. . I have another good friend dying of cancer now. I have lost other friends to COVID. I just don't know how to cope with all these deaths. I am so sad all of the time.Any suggestions on how not to feel such profound grief all of the time ..read more

My dad died in May 2020. It was so horrible. He was so senile in the end. He was 89. I didn't get the chance to say goodbye. He had to live in a nursing home. After we checked him in we lost him within 2 weeks. I was only able to visit him there once before he was dying. Thanks to Covid, we all wore masks. His voice was muffled. It was the last time I heard him speak in person and I couldn't understand a word. Well, it only got worse. He left me a voicemail. I couldn't understand a word of it. My mom said he'd been holding the phone upside down lately, and he'd speak into the wrong end of the ..read more

For the last three weeks I have been unable to feel anything but anger and numbness. I feel like I am slowly dying inside. Everything annoys me. I don't want to be around friends or family. I have lost 10 pounds. I don't know how to end this. My finance was killed in an auto accident. He was in a coma and eight days later he died. I cried like someone ripped my heart out of my chest and now I am angry and numb ..read more

I remember those who showed up for me, initially showed up and disappeared, and those who did not show up at all. For the friends who were initially there and disappeared, I am putting those friendships on a shelf and those are now second tier. If the person(s) contact me, great, but I have no energy to tend to those friendships. People who are not expected to be there show up. It’s not you, it’s their stuff. I think on some level people treat grief as contagious. Nonetheless it’s best to find those who can relate without judgment. That’s why I am here ..read more

Hi Everyone. Today is my dad’s one year anniversary. On Sunday, my husband and I went to one of his favorite restaurants. Today I decided to go to work and take a long lunch to remember my dad. It’s hard, but I am managing. I am in grief counseling and belong to a local support group that meets twice a month ..read more