I’ve been doing a step group for awhile now and its been nice because there’s another female that struggles with gambling. I’ve been able to help her a bit to see her behaviors through my experiences so its been nice to give back which is what recovery is ultimately about. I’m also doing a grief support group which has helped me heal alot of stuff that I needed to with losses ive endured in the last few years. I no that I can’t stay complacent in my life if there’s things that I need to work on I have to actually do that work. Sitting around just hoping things will disappear on there own just ..read more

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I wanted to be like the people in recovery who was able to contribute to the family every month. I could not do it in the past and I have learn to do it now. I wanted to stop alcohol and slot machine. I could not stop in the past and I have successfully done so for many years now. One thing at a time ..read more

I am putting down my pride and ego to seek help. I may have multiple years clean time on alcohol and slot machine, but I can only manage to stop sport betting for 6 months each time. I confess to the people at this particular support group and tell them that I really do not want to gamble. I really find gambling very meaningless in my life now. This group has more activities and the people stay connected after the meeting, they do things together. Something missing in my recovery. I am seeking this bonding, this connection, and their common interest in seeking God’s help ..read more

I’m f***ing stupid. Thought I could make it to May without any problems, just because I started to feel a little bit better… I have no idea. Not a small grain of idea. Why my own brain works maliciously like that. I have so many things to care about, and yet. It forces me to stay carefree, and then the addiction catches me in the most vulnerable state. I want to cry. It’s been a long time since I did it last time, for the same reason as now. Why can’t I just stop being so reckless, why can’t I get rid of these awful thoughts ..read more

Hi kin, Get well soon. About your thoughts on operators, I agree. They are evil people… You cannot underestimate casino or bookmaker. They use their advantage over gamblers (mentally ill people) to steal money from them. We need to stay far away from these sick places ..read more

Hi Cruising Thank you for your presence and support ..read more

My attitude towards the operator changes today. The authorities will arrest the narcotic producers, traffickers, pushers and users but they never arrest the casino operators and the gamblers, the brewery manufacturers and drinkers. They only arrest the illegal ones that does not produce money for them. They are destroying the lives of vulnerable people prone to using them. Blame it on the users but if they stop the producers, they can save the lives of so many users. One famous politician once says if you cannot stop them on your own, I will stop them for you. That is why the country I stay in ..read more

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Hi Kim I hope you feel better soon ..read more