We’ve all been through so much. I want to take a moment to share our memories. I know it’s still hard, but sharing is healing. It’s been almost 6 years since my big brother died by suicide. I had an especially hard day yesterday and I wanted to call him. But he’s not here. I wanted to tell him the struggles his nephews are having. How much they need their uncle. Though I talk to him everyday, it’s not the same. It’s taken me several years to not be mad and try to understand his choice. I’m... Read more ..read more

My Aunt Noelle was 5’3” going on 6’3”. She was bold. She was beautiful. She was a survivor. I was scared to meet her. After all, it had been 20 years since we had last spoken. Family can be like that sometimes. I’m glad I took that chance and made that phone call. That was 5 years ago and we were in constant contact every day since. Even up until the day before they found you. I wailed and asked God why. How? I remember yelling to my Mom what happened and not being able to catch my... Read more ..read more

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I remember the last 8 months leading up to Joe’s death so well. He was so sick and everything was chaotic and confusing and completely overwhelming. He was experiencing psychosis for months and months. He became another person and I could barely take care of us both. I remember everything - every minute detail from this time. I go over it constantly still, I remember what was happening, I relive that horrible time every day. Everything reminds me of those horrible months and weeks. I just... Read more ..read more

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It was 1.5 years last week since losing my partner, and frankly it is just as painful today as it has ever been. I have gone from the shock and the anger to feeling empty and alone. Abandoned. I find myself just waiting for the day to be over. The nights are the worst. At almost 61 I never imagined navigating the world alone. So many worries about the future. Who will take care of me if I get sick or injured? How will I manage this house and yard as my physical self declines with age? Will... Read more ..read more

lose my brother and other family member by this horrible way of death life been horrible for me I feel worst feeling ever I feel that i can’t do nothing feel shame and I complain about everything .feel I irrational can’t control anything in my life I don’t know how can I be ok back into my life when I feel happy or enjoy anything feel that it is bad or I do bad things I afraid of people from myself from everything ..read more

My son Bobby took his own life four weeks ago. He was witty, clever, musical and great with his hands. He was on the Autism spectrum and was very sensitive. He battled his depression and fought hard using health, running, music all the weapons he could . He lost the battle but perhaps not the war. I believe in a good God who knew hhh it s struggles. I miss him. I will never be sorry for all he taught me. His wall plaque said “ Live life for the moments you can’t put into words”. He certainly... Read more ..read more

Sharing one of Kristin's sketches. This piece of art says so much to me ..read more

lose my brother and other family member by this horrible way of death life been horrible for me I feel worst feeling ever I feel that i can’t do nothing feel shame and I complain about everything .feel I irrational can’t control anything in my life I don’t know how can I be ok back into my life when I feel happy or enjoy anything feel that it is bad or I do bad things I afraid of people from myself from everything ..read more