Hello, long time no see. It’s been four months since I wrote my last blog, and since then, my life has been super busy. I’ve just been sailing through, and whenever I thought of writing a blog, I was just scared to write because I dont know how to express being content with the idea of being scared. I keep thinking about telling my audience that it’s okay to be scared and content. I’ve been through a lot, and now that everyday life hits you hard, there are days when I question myself: is it for real? I have my bad days and okay days, but I still fail to accept that it’s normal because, being a ..read more

Hello, lovely people out there; as the year ends, I realised the only way to say goodbye to 2023 is by writing this year's journey. This year has been a battle where I had to fight for a stand I took; I had to defy society and, of course, my dear little friends called inner demons. The good part is I won; I am at a better place, but the tricky part is, am I fully healed? Maybe, maybe not. There are days when I feel proud of how I have come so far in life that sometimes I doubt if I fought it all alone or how I survived it all. And then there are days when I question my existence and have this ..read more

Hello, long time no see. I have been away from writing because I didn’t get the courage to say or articulate what I am feeling or going through. But then today, I gathered all the courage to talk about how a trauma survivor feels or the idea that it is okay to be numb after a huge life event or the fact that crying comes out of the blue because you have been in a fight-or-flight mode for a very long time. It’s easy to say, “I am OK.” I did it, I fought, and I won. But do we really mean what we say? This is the question I have been asking myself for the past one month, “Am I okay?” Maybe this i ..read more

Hey folks, I hope you all are doing well and sailing through fine. I know my blog took longer than I usually share, but my writing took a break because of too much happening in my life, personally and professionally. But that's what life is, or rather, adulting. Understanding everything can be tricky, and going with the flow can be challenging. This blog would generally be about how far I have come in my healing journey after the trauma I got and the amount of boosting I did for myself not to give up and just keep going because life doesn't stop for anyone. The trauma I got made sure that ..read more

Hey folks, long time no see. I hope you all are doing well. It’s been months since I wrote anything regarding my life ordeals or mental health. I have been in “fight or flight” mode for a long time and have been numb as too much has happened lately. Some of it will be shared in another blog, but today I want to vent, or rather rant, about my life. And, of course, one major update: my long-lost friend, depression, is back. Yup, I have a slight bump in my healing journey. I guess depression was missing me, or I was denying that I was losing my sh*t. But thankfully, my therapist got me and is rea ..read more

Hey folks, I hope the holiday season brings you lots of joy, happiness and adventures. As this year is ending, I wanted to reflect on what this year taught me and how I am still surviving. This year started with a brand new dream but got shattered very soon. It gave me PTSD and a reason not to live but little did I know. It also taught me how to live for myself and fight for what is wrong. Stand up for yourself and never let other people decide how your life should be. I was shown nightmares of being an “educated woman” in this 21st century and whatnot (I will talk in detail about this next ye ..read more

Hey folks, as the season is changing in many parts of the world, the urge to snuggle and sleep is around the corner. A sip of hot chocolate and some marshmallows would make a perfect evening in this weather, but this weather can be tricky and tough to handle for some. Thankfully I am at a place where there is neither much cold, but my past experiences have moulded me to be aware of November and the coming months as the past hits me the most this time, and I cannot channel it. As a PTSD survivor, feeling anxious and panicky every day is valid. It’s like constantly filled with deep, intense ..read more

Hey folks, back with my writing after a long gap. I wasn’t myself lately and I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to write about what was happening in my life lately. I have been on and off with my PTSD. I kind of relapsed but I am sailing fine as you know I can’t give up, especially not for someone who gave me trauma. I can't lose my worth because of some shit in my life that broke the inner child in me. I am trying to heal my inner child one day at a time. Currently, that child is too lost, and numb and wants to cry so hard but tears won’t just come up. I feel for her, I feel for her when she ..read more

Hey folks, I hope you all are doing fine. I was away from writing for a while because I wasn’t sure how to share what I was going through physically, mentally and emotionally. These past two months have been both good and bad. Good because I was busy with life in general bad because PTSD acted up a bit and I kinda lost it. So it all began in August when one story on a particular date on Instagram triggered the hell out of me. I didn’t realise that that particular trigger would hamper me physically first and then mentally. It all started with heavy chest pain, shivers, and a headache. It l ..read more

Hey folks, I hope heading to the eighth month of the year has been just fine mentally, physically and emotionally. I am here today to talk about how my weekends tend to be a dark hole for PTSD. My weeks are sailing by just fine with getting used to the normal life of family, work, health and everyday battles I have to fight through. But weekends tend to make me numb and confused because it kinda makes me lonely and PTSD gets the idea to trigger me about my past. I feel helpless and sometimes clueless as to how to fight about it but I guess I am learning this as well. I am just trying to re-liv ..read more