Can I just rec pedialyte to everyone over gatorade?? That baby water helped me through many rough mornings. Chugging some right before passing out is the best. Thank you babies. You really know your shit. Honestly, it may be the only thing you know. Along with peeing and titty milk that is. Pedialyte cheers to all. Promise they aren't a sponsor for my no karma reddit account where I post once a month ? submitted by /u/Miserabull [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Sorry y'all. This account is ancient history to me now. A relic of my addiction and tragedy losing a partner who was emotionally/physically abusive but also who I loved deeply. I am not going to argue whether it was real love. I am 28 now and feel ancient. Seeing death from addiction does that to you. Shaking the love of your life and crying her name does that to you. Realizing she is really gone does that to you. God damn, we wanted to be married but still had to pretend to be friends in front of her homophobic parents. I have grown up so much. I got so pissed at this sub when I was drunk an ..read more

Been on a bender which started on Thursday and ended today. Discovered blisters on my feet from bar hopping with sandals, dry skin and cracked lips. Totally forgot to hydrate and here I am binge watching a UK series called Supacell. I'm thinking I would be OK on Monday? Maybe Tuesday. How long does it take you guys to completely recover and resume? submitted by /u/saggysideboob [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

He was my rock and my only ‘family’ and friend. I think my time here on earth is up regardless. It’s ironic that he ended things because of my CA. He had 3 years and then he drank and ended things while I had 2 months. He knew it was a matter of time before the pressure built up and I was out again. I can usually only make it past 2-3 months before the chronic loneliness and pressures of life took me out. He’d always encourage me to go to the sober gatherings and stuff and was pretty involved in it. I wanted to go but I’m basically a house cat with a lot of social anxiety. It’s funny because ..read more

Can anyone else relate? I honestly don’t know how to explain it. It’s like when I’m sober I feel no intensity in my emotions. When I drink I finally feel like I can relate to my friends about their emotions (29F) but when I sober up I’m frozen and emotionless again. At the same time, when I drink the background noise in my head goes away. I have no idea how I’m ever going to reach some sort of equilibrium in my life. Been in AA, been to rehab, literally done everything I can do but still feel this way. Chairs x submitted by /u/NoArtichoke3623 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Hey fuckers. Sorry for posting so much in the last few days. I’m just so lost and don’t know where to go besides this hellhole (I mean that with the upmost of love). I’ve burned so many bridges and have scared so many close friends, I called three crisis hotlines out of state last night and I’m really spiraling. I need to go to detox but fuck I can’t, I’m supposed to move out of my crib tomorrow and I have a job starting August 2nd. I’m just so afraid of the consequences if I don’t (landlord and withdrawals lol). It will fuck my next job and I just can’t trust anyone. All I do is sit in bed a ..read more

Damn! The lengths we CAs go to feel ok and get our fix is extreme! My province has been in an extreme heat wave and now smoke and rainfall warnings. I called in sick to work but then of course needed booze. My watch has told me that i walked 11 020 steps just to get booze and a cup of noodles that i could afford. And i AM sick! But i still put my body through this?‍♀️ submitted by /u/tittzmakittz [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Four and a half years. Lasted long enough. He slow rolled this break up to the point where he spent all day yesterday talking to me about it, crying for hours on both of our parts, him saying that he was doing what was best for me and that I'd grow stronger by myself. Yeah, right. I'm going on a fucking bender. If his idea was for me to "get stronger" and "give up alcohol", here's a tip - pushing me outside of my regular schedule and comfort zone will absolutely make me drink more. Half of his stuff is still here along with his cat. I quit my job last month because he told me he'd take care o ..read more

Doesn't explain why my wife got fucking terminal cancer, but 2 days ago I seriously fucked up. For those that don't recognize the name, I was going through withdrawal from percocet daily for the last 20+ years because I had to leave and go 700 miles away basically because I just couldn't afford to stay in the motel room by myself.. So what do I do? I decide fuck it, I'm gonna go and try a tiny bit of heroin to feel normal again.. I got pick them up.. we go pick 2 other people up because they are the middle man here.. We were supposed to just go, grab it and leave Instead this bitch I have nev ..read more

I haven’t been sick for almost a year (besides withdrawals). I have an idea that liquor really does kill all the pathogens as well as yourself. Any time I need to detox I just say I got the flu and everyone believes me. My mom told me recently that I have a weak immune system cause I get sick so often and it broke my fucken heart. She really believes that every time I get the “flu” I’ve come down with an illness, when in reality I’m just tapering. I’m proud of myself for being able to hide it well but this shit hurts. I live a relatively normal life and no one knows how much I drink, but fuck ..read more