Your lips, Caught my attention when we first met, Two perfectly formed mounds made just for kissing, As your tongue slowly glides across your bottom lip, I imagine my fingers reaching across, Tracing its shape, Wondering what it would taste like on mine, Soft, supple and welcoming, Biting mine with precision and passion, Moving its way around with ease, Your hands on my neck, your tongue, your body, All take part in a dance of my undoing, Like you know my triggers, Smoothly, slowly and yet assured, Your lips part and tease me with your tongue, I didn’t know yearning till I tasted it from your ..read more

No matter how much I seem to try, How slow or fast I take it, How much I protect or throw my heart at someone, The fact of the matter still remains, I am always in second place, Left behind and forgotten like a bad memory, Thought of when the dust settles and other options don’t pan out, Second place as if my birth order is a permanence, I smile and grin through the grovelling of explanations, When I already know, I am always in second place, What is so unpleasant about me that I can’t be chosen? I can’t be the one sought after for once, Always in second place, The one they feel the need to c ..read more

Locks, So many surround my heart, I am beginning to wonder if there ever was a time it wasn’t caged, Locks, Of various shapes and sizes, Rusty, ornate, but a lock just the same, Locks, I have forgotten the combination of most, Their permanence a comfort, Locks, So tightly wound, to release it would be painful, Cobwebs and critters make it a home, Locks, Keeps me in and other’s out, Avoiding pain and heartbreak, Locks, So many I have forgotten how to communicate, Choosing silence and shrinking myself instead, Locks, The bridge between the life I could have and my fear, Worry and trauma bouncin ..read more

You choose to keep yourself apart, In a sea of turbulence and despair, Claiming a struggle you find comfort in, Refusing to let anyone near, Always at arm’s reach and never close enough to your heart, All while claiming to love me, Yet make zero to little action to affirm said love, You choose isolation and distance, which keeps you safe, But where does it leave me? What do I do with the wreckage your solace has left of my heart? How do I heal when like a ripped bandage on a burn, you reappear again? But with every sunset’s end that you remain on your self-imposed island, It will become perma ..read more

I keep squeezing my grip, Like a red balloon on a windy day, Fearing if I let you go, I will never see you again, But though it pains me, I cannot keep holding on for an ending which will never come, A love you will never show to me I realize you don’t value me enough to stop damaging my heart, You keep me on a string, close enough to pull me back in, Yet far enough that I’ll never fully truly be privy to your heart, Speaking of a love you apparently possess, Yet not a single gesture or outstretched hand to make your way back to me, So, I open my hands and let it go, Gone with the breeze and ..read more

I don’t care what happens in the in between. You. Only you. Are my destination. Detours and bumps in the road won’t deter me from finding you, You. Only you. Are my destination. The depths of the oceans and the stillness of the desert, You. Only you. Are my destination. At the end of the cul de sac is a heart that belongs solely to you, You. Only you. Are my destination. No matter the weather warnings or the turbulence, You. Only you. Are my destination. Potholes, orange cones & road rage. You. Only you. Are my destination. Distance, miscommunications and missed opportunities, Bring them ..read more

I genuinely hate to admit this, The tough exterior of my heart, Begins to push back against the melt, I can’t help but adore you, All that you are, Your brooding intensity, Your quiet loneliness, Your deep desire to be better, Your passion, I adore you, I can’t help the allure, The push and pull, The palpitation of my heart when I hear your voice, The light giggle which escape your throat, The one I kissed so deeply that night, I adore you, And if it means our love has to take a detour, Following an unconventional path, Riding a rough wave in order for us to find each other, Deeper and more h ..read more

I miss the thoughts you made me feel, The rush of blood to the head, The giggles and youthful thrill, I miss the person I thought you were, Open, communicative and mature, Always willing and ready to listen and share without judgement, I miss the feel of you in a warm embrace, Strong, sturdy and enveloping, Your hand caressing my back, I miss our deep, philosophical conversations, Thought-provoking, challenging, but full of love, Looking through family photos, knowing you don’t show these to just anyone, I miss laying on your chest and feeling safe, Shielded, protected and cared for, Never im ..read more

All these months, I’ve patiently and silently waited for you, All these months, I thought of all the things you could say, All these months, Wondering what excuses or reasons you would offer, All these months, Festering in my loneliness, All these months, Shedding tears for someone who pretended to care, All these months, Fixing and patching up my heart from the damage you caused, All these months, Then you send an insignificant sorry, All these months, As if those five simple words could ever make up for the damage, All these months, Spent trusting you, All these months, Sharing parts of me ..read more

I need to know why I wasn’t good enough, Why I wasn’t worth fighting for? Crossing oceans, losing sleep over and grandiose romantic gestures, Why wasn’t I good enough to merit your heart? What was missing for you? I keep tripping over thoughts of you, Circling my mind like hungry sharks, Pangs of emotions I want to abandon, I shouldn’t still be feeling this way, Too much water has passed under that emotional bridge, Yet here I am, Why wasn’t I good enough? Why wasn’t I worth the risk? You made me feel seen, Yet I made you disappear, Why wasn’t I good enough? You owe me that… Nov 2022- R1 ..read more