Have you ever felt like your life was catapulting you towards some great collide? Something you can’t touch or even fathom, but it’s going to be big, Life changing even, but instead of being potentially excited for it, You are secretly filled with dread, Anxiety, Worry, You try to break down the moments into granular pieces, So that you can find a slither of joy, But you blink and its evaporated, Nothing stays the same and nothing is secure, Yet, this is the very thing which destabilizes you, It’s the mounting feeling of unease, Life is fill of surprises, Ups and down, But how do you stop the ..read more

In my head, Self-sabotage tells me I don’t deserve this, That a love like this isn’t for someone like me, It circles and looms, In my head, Wondering whether any moment of seriousness means the end, When any pause increases my heart rate, In my head, Someone can’t love me this deeply, I am flawed, troubled and scarred, In my head, Full of anxiety and doubts at the best of times. But on the other hand, I am also full of love and devotion, but In my head, Those are not the focus, I see the uncertainty and worry, In my head… June 2024 ..read more

Our love reminds me of paper planes, Not the kind you make from just any type of paper, The one that is robust, thicker than most cards, The type that holds itself, Waits to fold at just the right moment to make it symmetric, A paper plane with a solid back and straight structure, Pointing forward, but open for the ride of new heights, A paper plane not afraid to get wet or grazed by the trees, One that takes every gust of wind as a way to adjust in the breeze, It’s tapping into a culture of beauty in the simplicity, A paper plane synchronized with the ebbs and flows, Folded and ready to rece ..read more

I genuinely can’t fathom any feeling better than this, We drive down the road, the sun basking on our skin The open road blue sky, arms wide open to greet us, I look across you and a knowing smile, creeps across my face, As your own smile greets mine, I’m feeling this way because of you, You make weekends that much better, I used to think they needed to be big, With an event packed into it, so that I could keep your attention, Some creative way to stand out, But, with time I have realized that the slow, unwinding ones replenish me, The ones where all we’re doing is reconnecting, How to cheris ..read more

Sometimes I wish there was a way to capture moments, A way to take a snapshot in our minds, Some way to time capsule it all, Not the grand gestures, The small, simple moments which typically go unnoticed, A way to bottle the feelings of calm, gratitude and love, Somehow to tap back into the slivers of unfiltered joy being around you brings, A way to reach into the memories, That make us turn away blushing, Hand holding on a car ride, The sun beaming down, Your warmth radiating, The light physical touches as they brush past you, The moments that allow a sliver of a smile to creep across your f ..read more

I lay in bed, With a broad smile on my face, And how could I not? I love you, That much I know to be true, I lay in bed with a smile, You fill my desire, But you also challenge my thinking, I lay in bed with a smile, All because you have opened the very heart I thought to be shut, How can I not lay here smiling? Everything comes back down to a smile, A simple reflex, but so complete for how I feel, I lay in bed with a smile, When I don’t know that I have had a love like this? I lay in bed with a smile, When your touch awakens literally everything in me, I lay in bed with a smile, Because just ..read more

As I lay naked in your bed, The sunlight billowing in from the window, I can’t help but smile, I arch my back and recall the things you did to my body, But it’s not only that, Your love does so much to me, I bask in it, savoir it, Grateful you chose me, Wonder what you saw in me? The warmth of the sun reminds me of the heat you touched me with, The dishevelled sheets proof of its evidence, You see me in ways I don’t see myself, You notice things I assumed I was good at keeping hidden, But, love is a funny thing, If done right, it takes off your clothes figuratively and literally, It asks for ..read more

It’s a little funny how life works, You’re down on your luck, Reprieve seems nowhere in sight, When out of the blue something unexpected happens, You fall in love, Not the infatuation type, The “This is going to change my life” type, The I don’t ever want this bubble to burst type, It seamlessly restructures your entire DNA, Life before them seems void of colour, Tasteless and mundane, Void of true sentiment, Your chest is filled with a gulp of air you cannot swallow, This, this is bigger than your body, Bigger than the love you thought you could ever have, Challenging, expansive and profound ..read more

I am running out of words in my vocabulary, To describe just how magical you make me feel, Cells perform summersaults in my veins, Your name flashes up on my phone, And instantly my heart rate increases exponentially, I would drive hours to simply get a minute in your space, You see me, You love me, But not the kind that is said and guessed, The kind that is felt, the kind that tingles your skin… The “I’ve got you” love, Emotions circling in overwhelming bursts, Molecules explode in my mind, Is this sensation real? Am I really feelings fireworks in my chest or it’s the high, The immediate qui ..read more

I thought I knew happiness, I thought I understood what it meant, But these feelings, Bubbling inside of me, A ridiculous smile plastered across my face, I thought I knew happiness, I thought I knew joy, But now I feel like I was only play acting, Being accepted for who I am, Not for who they want me to be, I thought I knew happiness, I thought I comprehended passion, All of it was faking, Electricity charged through fingertips, I thought I knew happiness, I thought I processed trust, But, this one ripped me wide open, I thought I knew keeping a wall up, But it was instant, I looked in your e ..read more