I can’t help it, I am so used to fending for myself, Fighting for emancipation, Wrestling away help like my life depended on it, Resistance felt normal to me, Conflict and struggle part of the norm, That now, with your love so enveloping, I feel like a fragile little bird, Made of rare porcelain, But chipped and cracked, Weathered from misuse, A rare gem, One we are all worried will fall, Shatter to immeasurable pieces, A little bird, perched Ready to take flight into the unknown, Yet still so delicate, soft Requiring love, but most of all patience, You love me so wholly, How can I ever doubt ..read more

I often find sleeping alone to feel so lonely, Lying awake, staring into the dark, While your heart aches to be somewhere else, With someone else, The empty side of the bed, Feels like a void, Gapping and ever present, You’re just one of those people, Alone, It happens, But the cold draft coming from not having anyone there, Starts to wear on you, It feels hollow, big, weighted, No one who stills your mind, Someone to stop your overthinking, Takes your hand in theirs and says, I’ve got you, us Instead, I roll over Reaching my hand out, Only to be greeted by the sound of my hand dropping to th ..read more

I love seeing myself through your eyes, Where you look at me with a face full of love, A lingering finger across my thigh, A spontaneous kiss on the cheek, In those instances, I see a flash of myself through your eyes, A cheesed up grin when I say some thing funny, I love seeing how much you care and love me, To feel just a percentage of how you feel about me, On the days when I feel unworthy, I close my eyes and envision your image, The ways in which you show your love, Being attentive, listening, Giving me time and space, Pushing me to face some of my biggest fears, Asking the hard question ..read more

Enveloped, protected, When I am in your presence, I instantly feel safe, Comforted, embraced, People, things, time stands still, The cogs in my mind come to a halt, It no longer runs away from itself, No longer needing to self-sabotage, I am loved. Of that I’m sure. I am accepted. Of that I’m sure. I am seen. Of that I’m sure, Happily living in this love bubble that is you, us One that wraps me up in your love, Your acceptance, Your patience A place where I can be myself, Enveloped and cherished, A love so gentle, so easy… I never want this bubble to pop. Feb 2024 ..read more

You took the guesswork out of it, No longer did I have to ask questions, You showed me with your actions, I felt sure, I knew, I could see it in your eyes, In your touch, not only in your words, You and only you calmed my overactive mind, Suddenly, I didn’t have to ask questions, I wasn’t filled with doubt or anxiety, I knew my heart was safe in your hands, You took the guesswork out of it, You stilled my thoughts and excited my heart, Everything done with care and with intention, You showed consistently that you weren’t running away, I wasn’t intimidating or off putting, You embraced my flaw ..read more

It’s hard to be level headed when I’m writing this so emotionally, But it feels like no one understands my burden, I carry it so effortlessly and silently it is almost invisible But every once in a while my resolve cracks, A tiny tear is shed, One that betrays the control I maintain And the distance I claim I am happy with No one checks in on me, No one lends a hand to lighten the load, The ease betrays my need for a break, Or my silent desire to run away from it all, “You do it all”, “You are so strong”, Little do they know of the hours spent the night before, Wondering if I’m good enough, W ..read more

It’s an interesting dichotomy, When your body is slowly failing you, Feeling like an invisible number in a huge cog, Watching and waiting for your turn to be seen, Hoping it hasn’t all been for nothing, Worrying about the results and what’s to come, As people scurry to and fro, seemingly with things to do, All while you sit around as your day wastes away, You’re in the best place, you’ve been told, Deep down you know this, but you can’t help but feel displaced, A floater, waiting to be plucked out from the sky, Rooted in meaning or significance, Do they see it? How visibly invisible you are ..read more

A year of loving you, A year of holding your heart to mine, Making memories and making my heart smile again, A year of peeling back the layers to a place hidden to most, Smiling to myself, because you are ever in my thoughts, A year of adventure and learning each other, Laughing, oh so many kisses A year of building trust and teamwork, A year of me not standing in my own way, Allowing you to see me for me, A year of excitement and butterflies, Of anticipation and long goodbyes, A year of milestones and firsts, Of lingering fingers and trailing kisses, A year of I love yous… Dec 2023 " src="ht ..read more

Your kisses, Left on my skin, Your fingertips, Trail marks on the side of my waist, Your beautiful eyes Follow me as I walk around the room, I don’t want any of them to wash away, Sometimes I delay taking a shower, So your scent can linger on my skin, Just a bit longer, Your smell sunk deep in my pillow, Any reminder of you is welcomed, A strand of you shed hair left on my shirt, Your t-shirt draped over my chair I look across the room and think of the space you filled just minutes before, I don’t want any of you to wash away, Nov 2023 ..read more

I am soft, treat me as such, I am vulnerable, Explore with caution, My loyalty is bar none, Don’t waste my time, I put up a front, But don’t be fooled it is merely for protection, I am guarded, But only from the wrong people, I am caring and committed, Match me with the same energy, You will feel my love expressed in many ways, Don’t take it for granted, Like a glass of water on a sunny day, I will quench your thirst, Don’t waste a single drop, I am a forever love, If you’re temporary, keep passing through… Nov 2023 " src="https://scontent-iad3-1.cdninstagram.com/v/t51.2885-15/412707032_75514 ..read more