The system is really stacked against me. Even though there is so much proof, I’m the one that has to find all of that and present it in court, I have to do all the work and answer their questions designed to scare me and make me feel like I’m not beloved and not being believed is my nightmare. I can’t handle facing people that don’t believe me. The last judge made it clear he was only siding with us because it was a police application and he even said he felt sorry for my ex and didn’t want him to think the judge wanted to kick him out of his house. I can’t fight with people like that. People ..read more

Hi Anzee, Your children sound wonderful. I understand that sometimes children are conditioned to act and think a certain way from their childhoods. Sometimes they see how others act and then they mimic this. Anzee what you are doing right now is building them into the people they are going to become………. Right now they have “ your” influence to teach them right from wrong please don’t give up on that right……… you can condition your children the correct way to grow into young respectful adults. Please don’t give up stay on your path move forward and through this because YOU can win this…. ❤️ and ..read more

Dear Anzee~ That was a lovely post and I realy enjoyed reading it. I get to know more about all three of you and that's simply great. I guess in a way it's a good thing your garden has plenty of weeds left:) After all it can be quite a good occupation. You never know in time the 10yo may give you a hand with the 6yo's hitting. That would be excellent. It's a great pity they both learned that one way to deal with things that are unpleasant or worrying is to blame and be violent. I would think that if it can be learned at that age it can be channeled into other was of expressing distress -partic ..read more

Dear next time, I hear you. At times I feel it is too late for me and I am hanging on to this flimsy thread for survival. It is hard beyond words and when my health deteriorated again just over a week ago I felt like my body was giving up. But I did have a good first therapy session with a new therapist on Friday. I’ve been in self-protection mode at home but I decided yesterday to go whale watching as they’ve been sighted off the coast recently. Something about seeing these huge, beautiful creatures was energising and life-giving. I chose to be restful for the whole day, not even looking at t ..read more

I think I slept all night and I wasn’t stuck in a nightmare when I woke up. I don’t remember the last time both of those things happened. Yesterday I finished the housework and then I’d bought gardening gloves for us all even though I don’t have a clue about gardening, our backyard was pretty overgrown with weeds. The 10yo and I spent almost 2 hours weeding (and it didn’t look that much different haha) the 6yo lasted about 20 minutes before going inside for a ‘rest’ and not coming back out. Typical for the 6yo. Then the 10yos best friend came and picked her up and took her to the cinema, we di ..read more

hank you Eagle Ray I totally agree with you about trauma being held in the body, and the body being where the healing has to start. I have read some of Peter Levine’s work, and have started working with someone who does this kind of therapy. I just don’t know how much healing is possible for me after so much time. Everyone says things like ‘it’s never too late’, etc, but that’s just words and bland, expected responses. I don’t know whether anyone ever really heals from this sort of thing. I am not hopeful. Everyone also says things like ‘hang in there, it will get better, blah, blah’. But it d ..read more

Dear Guest_7403, You've received a wonderful post from one of our very supportive and helpful community champions. We would like to compliment your strength and courage in writing your post. We are glad to hear that you are doing better at work. We agree with Croix that other people cannot decide how you should be reacting to difficult situations. We would like to encourage you to talk to your GP about the possibility of getting a mental health plan so you can work with a mental health specialist on your struggles. We would also like to encourage you to call the BeyondBlue Support Serv ..read more

I’ve heard good things about vitamin D in relation to the liver condition I have. I used to take it and probably should try again. It’s great you’ve got that benefit. I try to get some sunshine too for vitamin D. It feels easier this time of year because the UV rating is lower and you don’t have to worry as much about sun protection. I understand about the difficulty reading. A few weeks back I could not read even though I had a book I wanted to. You could try either audiobooks or podcasts. I do listen to podcasts sometimes on topics that interest me. My mind wanders a bit with the spoken word ..read more

Dear Guest_7403~ "Just get over it" is one of the responses that really gets my goat, "why can't you just move on" is another. While I'll allow a few people might mean well however I've come to the conclusion in many cases it is just the person being able to sat ot themselves "Well, I've fixed that with sensible talk". No understanding, no effort, no kindness. Sensible talk my foot!. It simply highlights the great distance between their understanding and my condition. That is in itself depressing. You may be right about time to diagnosis. it was many years before I found I had PTSD to go wiht ..read more

Another year has gone past since this horrible day. I don't have anxiety or fear of my workplace anymore, and consistently work there without issues. Its the cost of 2 families and friends from the aftermath and the lack of support, treatment and failure of many psychs to actually diagnose me with PTSD. By the time I got my official diagnosis it had been 3 years, and most studies point to catching it early within 12 months for the best outcome. Feel a bit like I was robbed of that opportunity to get on top of it before it became so ingrained in me. Everyday I battle my mind, it's exhausting an ..read more