Hi Guys, This used to be my old go to site when I needed help but have since become involved with the mental illness apps, the really resemble more of a dating app tbh. I discovered only recently that I have Anxious attachment style that make me clingy because of my low self-esteem, fearing abandonment, unable to set up healthy boundaries and becoming emotionally attached to people way too fast. I came back to this forum for advice because I don't fully trust the app I'm using on my mobile due to stalkers, sexual advances etc. I have a long history of mental illness and it still effects my ..read more

I have felt very depressed in the past several days, and nothing seems to make me feel that much better. Especially when I found out that my one brother pointed out that his kids had complained about me offending them in some ways. I did apologize but still I felt worse than ever. I feel like I've lost a lot of my creativity and spontaneity because it just seems so pointless. It doesn't seem like I have much at all to be enthusiastic for. I'd love to leave this past year behind. I noticed my misery spread around when I went to my class today and I felt I was killing that wonderful New Year's E ..read more

I feel so sad, so lost. I didn't know know how broken I was. This week my actions have shown me how pathetic and desperate I am for any kind of attention. I'm settling for crumbs and still being rejected. God I feel so sad ..read more

Does anyone Get really depressed on any kind of holiday?. Christmas, Halloween, Easter, what ever. I personally find that they are worse than birthdays for me (in terms of depression) I see them as milestones. Just as you grow older every year and reflect on the year gone, you do the same with the holidays. Like, this time last Halloween, I wasn't doing anything with my life Now we've had the complete circle, it's Halloween again., and I'm in the same old rut That kind of thing ..read more

Every day is repetitive and depressing. I feel like every aspect of my life is a challenge and I don’t have much to enjoy. Whenever I do find something I enjoy it gets ruined. I feel like no one close to me genuinely understands how truly empty I feel. I used to wish I would get some strange incurable disease so I would pass away and no one would be to blame or feel the hollowness. I keep holding onto the fact that things will get better but I truly am unsure if they really will. Instead of doing my late assignments I am on this forum again scrolling hoping to find some posts that make me feel ..read more

It's been a very rough few weeks. I've made 2 other posts about this over the last couple weeks but tonight is the absolute fucking icing on the cake and I honestly don't know how much more I can fucking take.. Between the shit week I had away from home for a job, to come home looking forward to spending time with my mom only for her to have to leave to take my dad to go get his teeth pulled and dentures fitted in SC where I had literally just come home from the week before. Then they get home and I'm told out of nowhere that they're going on a 4 day cruise because the doctors don't think my d ..read more

I posted the other day that my mom and I finally got to have a good start to a conversation we've been needing to have for a long time. I don't want to rehash too much of my previous post because then I just feel like it'd be a useless post... I struggled really bad emotionally while she was gone. Which you would think it would be no big deal since I've bottled shit up for years.. I was in a bad headspace, I had just gotten home a few days prior from a shitty 10 day work trip and although I definitely appreciated the money it made me, it really fucking sucked between being away from my mom an ..read more

I've been around this site for a long time and usually pop in when I have something on my mind or I need to vent.. Life's been rough.. I've struggled a lot. Last night I was really struggling and trying to keep my shit in check because my mom was leaving this morning for a trip with my sick father whom we don't believe has long left. Well last night I texted her while she was packing and told her that I've had a lot on my mind (i live with her but i knew my dad was around and i wasn't about to cry in front of my dad and have him put his nose all up i business or accuse me of trying to ruin hi ..read more

Dear members, thank you so much for listening to my problem. I get it straight to the point. I am afraid that what if I can't meet my wife after this life. For example I am born again in some other universe and don't have my wife there with me. This obsession has destroyed me too much. A little better with meds now. Here in my country, I went to two therapists they told me to follow religion and that increased my obsessions. I am now trying ERP therapy by my self and feeling a little better than before. Can any body give me a great answer so that I can remove all of my problems related to this ..read more

I’m struggling with my depression again and even though I know it’s my brain’s reaction to my physical problems (long term illnesses) mostly, I don’t know how to stop my intrusive thoughts and images. Sometimes it’s overwhelming. I’m just going to say that I don’t act on any of it anymore haven’t for several years but sometimes it’s an intense feeling and I don’t know how to cope with it. I’m so scared of relapsing to my worst. And I don’t want to put anyone through me being completely irrational and my absolute worst self again. I’m really scared that I’ll let people down. Mum says to keep sa ..read more