Killing the Buddha Magazine
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Killing the Buddha is an online magazine of religion, culture, and politics. It began on November 13, 2000, when Peter Manseau and Jeff Sharlet invited readers who were both hostile and drawn to talk of God to join them in building an electronic Tower of Babel, a Talmudic cathedral of stories about faith lost and found. They named it after a saying of the Chinese Buddhist sage Lin Chi.
Killing the Buddha
1y ago
I’ve heard other people’s churchyard memories from childhood that involve hide and seek among tombstones, the sound of bells, or processions of saints, palms, and monstrances. The ecclesiastical architecture of my childhood probably can be best described as “Baptist Bunker;” I have vivid memories of joining forces with Sunday School classmates to find ways into and out of window wells significantly deeper than a kindergartener is tall. After some stints at megachurches and a nondenominational “Bible Church” that met in a funeral home, my parents settled on a yellow-brick-with-glass-blocks-as ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
1y ago
We wash feet on the New Haven Green,
feet that need deep callouses,
that walk in wet socks after spates of rain.
If you listen while two feet soak,
maybe you come to know the daily movements
of a woman named D.,
whose feet drag from the warming center
into winter dawns to rest in the bus shelter
until the library opens at 10,
who hurries to the seat by the window
in the sci-fi/fantasy reading room,
and waits for her ankles to hinge and tilt
with A Wrinkle in Time,
turning gravity into a Mrs. Whatsit lullaby.
On Sundays and all public holidays,
when the library is closed and it’s ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
1y ago
It’s Ash Wednesday, and I’m excited. Not because I like to dwell on death. I just love ashes: the fire and matter, this rite of passage, this riverboat of living and dying we’re all in.
As far as I know, drawing the cross in ashes on foreheads is the only unconditional ritual of the church. You don’t have to be ordained or even baptized to give ashes. And to get an Ash Wednesday blessing, no need to profess a thing: Just receive, in a dark smudge, the dust-to-dust of us, the particles of stars on your skin.
This afternoon, I’ll receive ashes on the New Haven Green, then offer ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
1y ago
We’re thrilled that Jeanna Kadlec– “writer, astrologer, former lingerie boutique owner, and recovering academic”– answered KtB‘s 11 Questions about her new memoir, Heretic:
Describe your book in three adjectives!
Restorative, queer, unfuckablewith.
What is one of your favorite sentences from the book?
“I dyed my hair red, I screeched like an owl, I wandered in the wilderness until I created myself anew.”
Name a book or writer that inspired or guided you as you wrote.
Mary Oliver got me through some tough moments.
What is something you discovered in the process of writing this boo ..read more
Killing the Buddha
1y ago
I’ve heard other people’s churchyard memories from childhood that involve hide and seek among tombstones, the sound of bells, or processions of saints, palms, and monstrances. The ecclesiastical architecture of my childhood probably can be best described as “Baptist Bunker;” I have vivid memories of joining forces with Sunday School classmates to find ways into and out of window wells significantly deeper than a kindergartener is tall. After some stints at megachurches and a nondenominational “Bible Church” that met in a funeral home, my parents settled on a yellow-brick-with-glass-blocks-as ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
1y ago
Photo credit CNN Politics.
It is hard to believe that just a few days ago my family and I went to a Fourth of July parade and found ourselves fleeing gunfire. It feels like a lifetime ago.
When I left my house in Highland Park, IL, this morning, I turned back after half a block. I was going to see the memorial where the vigil was the night before, and my hands felt empty. The daisies in my yard had just started blooming, and I meant to cut some of them, but then I thought about the alliums, those tall springtime bursts that look like fireworks, which after flaring purple fade to brown. I ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
2y ago
The heavens distract
from the gnashing of ants
And from your mouth pour forth
doom after doom.
The shaking fist proclaims the wound of your brand—
Nightmare upon nightmare
sprout from your moon.
You’ve pitched
termites into our wooden house,
And cloud upon cloud upon cloud
you build,
Night after night we hear the working jaws
Packing them full
of grayness and rainfall.
Your steeples ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
2y ago
Rachel Replogle grew up surrounded by homophobia and purity culture.
“This was a world with a lot of different messages that I grew up in, hearing that being queer was wrong, hearing that my body was inherently bad and that any sort of sexual desire was inherently evil,” Replogle explained, “any attraction to a gender that was not explicitly outlined in the Bible was inherently evil.” Replogle, who now identifies as a nonbinary lesbian, grew up in a deeply conservative religious environment, her mother a prominent ex-gay speaker and her parents in charge of a local campus ministry.  ..read more
Killing the Buddha
2y ago
I don’t mean to be ungrateful.
At six, seven, eight,
you were
prophet,
priest,
king;
I told myself not to praise you.
I only knew you, I
unknowingly
worshipped
with my child heart.
You spent our time trying
to direct my eyes
to the cross.
I swear,
I thought I was looking.
At sixteen, seventeen, eighteen,
you were
refuge,
shield,
sword;
double-edged, your blade
dug into my flesh
into my bones
in the name of
Jesus,
without meaning to.
But there was love, love, love,
dripping from our hands.
We both gripped the sharp edge,
and it was painfu ..read more
Killing the Buddha Magazine
2y ago
Beatitude
a forsaken saint
in a shop-rite uniform
is begging alms
on the overpass.
he sees my uniform.
oh, you work at shit-rite, too?
we talk, & my wallet
comes out––
sometimes
multiplication
of loaves
just means
splitting
one loaf
between
two people.
but miracles,
like mutual aid,
are survival pending
revolution.
Beatitude
The guy who fills
my pockets with
atomic fireballs
gives me the whole
bag––a filling
fell out and he can’t
buy the time
between two jobs
to fix it.
Another
EMT-in-training
asks for my
emergency medicine
cheat sheets, hard up ..read more