To watch a loved one suffer takes a colossal amount of strength. I have sat beside my grandmothers bed every day for the last 4 weeks taking in every moment left with her. I am truly blessed to have had my grandmother help deliver me when I was born and then I got to return the favor and hold her hand as she went to heaven. She saw my first breath and I saw her last. I cried when you passed away and here I am still crying.  I know I couldn’t make you stay.  Your golden heart had to stop beating.  It was time for you to rest.  I now know God only takes the best!!! Now she ..read more

To my son’s teachers! As you step inside your classroom to prepare for this new year coming up, please keep in mind the role in which you will play in my Childs life this year. For the next year I place all my faith in you and hand over my sweet child into your care for seven hours a day. You will see my child more than I will in the next 10 months. I want you to know that how you treat my child is how the rest of the kids will see him as well. If you treat him just like the other kids then the kids will follow your lead. Please know that every smile and hug you give my child durin ..read more

People are always looking at others’ lives and are jealous or envy them. I choose to be happy with where I am in life. I choose to be Kind and respect others and to respect and be kind to myself. It’s not my turn to experience high school. It’s not my turn to go to prom. It’s not my turn to go to a new college. It’s not my turn to get engaged. It’s not my turn to plan a wedding. It’s not my turn to announce I am pregnant. It’s not my turn to introduce a new baby into the world. It’s not my turn to relax on vacation. BUT IT IS MY TURN! It’s my turn to be the best mother I can be. It’s my turn ..read more

Why is it so hard for some people to realize that Kyle isn’t defined by his diagnoses! That’s not all that he is! It’s only a small part of him. He really doesn’t make any more noise than other children. Just because his noises aren’t concrete words doesn’t make him noisy. He has his own way of communicating with us. It doesn’t make it bad or wrong. He is working on making his sounds something someone can understand. Who says how he talks is wrong? Why aren’t we labeled as different? Why is he treated differently? My child deserves to be treated like any other child. He deserves the same oppo ..read more

You don’t understand how hard it is to let go of my child’s hand in the morning and hand him over to you. You don’t know how long It took me to make this decision to let him ride the bus. Some may say its brave or courageous to trust another with your child’s life. I sometimes think it can be daring but also really unwise. In today’s world we live in, we must worry about things that could happen. Yes, I understand it’s hard for most parents to watch their child drive away on a bus with strangers you might not know. But in my world this is far greater of a fear. Imagine your child not being ab ..read more

Let’s see if this sounds familiar to any of you. A few months ago I was at the vets with my two dogs and two kids. As I sat there struggling I was trying to keep two dogs back from trying to greet all the other dogs in the room. I had my autistic son in between my legs keeping him from collapsing on the floor and stopping him from running free. I had the dog’s paperwork in one hand being juggled and occasionally falling on the floor. My daughter kept asking me a million questions about what was going to happen next. I had my purse hanging off my shoulder about to fall at any moment. I was swe ..read more

CPSE meeting! Kyle had his CPSE meeting today. CPSE stands for, “Committee on Preschool Special Education.” These meetings are always a lot to take in. There are always so many people talking about all the things your child can not do and their weaknesses. For once I would love a phone call or a meeting with all good things to say!!!!!!!!! It is such an emotional rollercoaster ride to have a child with special needs. These meetings are endless and I am always talking about new evaluations and new paperwork that needs to be filled out. It’s a constant reminder that your child is struggling. Du ..read more

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Lately all I can think of are the ways I am lucky to be your mother. I want you to know no matter how hard it gets sometimes; I am still lucky to be your mother. I feel lucky to be your mother during the joyful times. When you hug me and squeeze the life out of my leg. When you blew out your candle for the first time on your own. When you reach a milestone on time. When you surprise me and do something that I thought would be hard for you. When you say you love me in your own way, without words. I feel lucky enough to be your mother during the hard times. When you are struggling to communica ..read more

Dear special needs dad, You are stronger than anyone knows. To have a son with special needs is so hard on a man. All men dream of the day they have their first son . . . They can’t wait to teach them how to play ball, cut wood, wrestle, get dirty, do boy stuff, play with trucks, and most importantly pass on the family name. To have a son means you get to raise a mini-me. But unfortunately, these things might not happen with a son with a disability. You are now forced to change your whole idea of what it means to have a son. But because of this change in the way you have to think now, you are ..read more