Dearest Readers, remember me? I’ve been spending time back at the drawing board with my Afterward Honesty Yoga project.  I’m busy building an online yoga platform that will allow me to serve involuntarily childless people the best I possibly can.  Turns out it’s more involved than I thought is all!   In the meantime, my awkward transition (I’m sure many of you have your own stories of those from this childless life!) has left me without a space to post.  And with this year’s #worldchildlessweek words that hurt day theme addressing the ever clueless “You’re lucky you don’t h ..read more

Dear Readers,  After all this time I’m finally able to offer you some yoga!  Wanted to let you know about Afterward Honesty’s very first yoga offering this coming Sunday May 8 from 12:00 – 1:15 ET.  Get the class description, sign up and other info when you click the image on the left.  Hope to see you there and over at the blog on Afterward Honesty ..read more

I’ve always been drawn to difference.  Hailing from a quintessentially small white New England town, on the edge of my adolescence my restless soul began to grumble about the lack human variety in which I was swimming.  To which my Dad would chuckle something along the lines of, “How do you know anything about human variety?  You haven’t been anywhere yet!” Making my way out into the world in my twenties I had the tendency – and was also quite determined – to have experiences different from what I knew.  This led me to work and/or live in many settings alongside the human ..read more

Hope to see you on board over on my new platform, Afterward Honesty where I’m looking forward to supporting childless health and wellness through yoga offerings and webinars Hop on over to….. Sign up to receive advanced notice of my yoga offerings Sign up to get Afterward Honesty blog posts delivered to your inbox Follow me on social media Why I Love Rudolph My unexpected childless holiday tradition For a long time, I could not have even conjured the possibility of sitting myself down and taking in a holiday tv special.  These potentially glorious childhood throwbacks naturally re ..read more

Well Dear Readers, look what December dragged in – Meet my new and expanded platform, Afterward Honesty!! I’m happy to share that, coming in 2022, I’m going to start offering yoga workshops, yoga classes and webinars for the purpose of exploring and supporting the experiences surrounding involuntary childlessness. Along with the occasional sassy blog post you’ve all come to know and…..well, I’ll let you fill in the rest! We’ll be kicking off with a Your Breath As a Resource Workshop coming this spring. So what can you do right now? A few things: Hop on over and check out Afterward Honesty ..read more

Revelations and Reflections On a Healing Trajectory Photo credit: Geoff Colley/Shutterbug Once upon a time, I gleefully passed out Halloween candy as a wide eyed new homeowner.  This occurred for a couple of years before the friction between my envisioned future and actual reality started to grind.  And it culminated amid my ttc efforts with hurriedly drawing the blinds down in the wake of an unexpected onslaught of trick or treaters in 2012, hardly 36 hours after hurricane Sandy left town.  Seriously. Six years later, I attempted to hop back in the saddle.  It was an i ..read more

#worldchildlessweek2021 Not even two months after my final failed fertility treatment, I had entered the adoption option’s funnel cloud.  As harsh realities and impossibilities swirled from every direction on this front, I was also sharing myself with people as I tried to make my way out into the world again.  I’ve noticed since this is something that other grieving people commonly and spontaneously tend to do. After conveying some grief over my unfruitful attempts at trying to conceive I was told by an acquaintance I thought well of, “Well, you can ALWAYS foster or adopt…..”.  ..read more

And what precious little separates us The day after the fierce flooding caused by Hurricane Ida here in the northeast United States, I had just so happened to have a consultation scheduled with a solar company.  A sobering, “too little too late” synchronicity?  Perhaps.  But given the years – long absence of it in my trying to conceive and healing processes, I now revel in any remnant of synchronicity that comes my way! As I took the virtual call, I was fumbling through assimilating the events that had occurred a mere thirty miles from my home while feeling mildly comforted in ..read more

I don’t have to tell most of you, dear readers, that in a world that likes to think of itself on a progressive social change trajectory, it has, in fact, become increasingly HARDER to be involuntarily without children. In our modern day world, the now ever plentiful pathways to mommy-hood grab headlines.  Along with the myths and implied simplicities surrounding those pathways that also have seeped into the human conversation.  I mean, you could be a person without children living solo in an igloo close to the north pole with your hands literally tied behind your back, and you would ..read more

Reflections on what’s missing from a year of headlines It was early on in the pandemic that talk of grandparents not being able to see their grandchildren started to become part of the daily swirl. I was genuinely moved by the grandparent heartache at first.  I could, all too well, relate to the plight of having something close to your heart to which you expect free access ripped from your existence.  Even if only temporarily.  I actually shed some tears on behalf of this not asked for angst.  At the time, I was six years out of multiple fertility treatments rendering n ..read more