From a trip to Chicago, to moving into a new house, to working on my physical fitness, life has been fast paced. With all that has been going on, it's easy to overlook the blessings each day carries. At times I get caught up in the past or lost in what the future may bring. This episode shares some ways I pull myself into the present. I don't want to miss out on the blessings each day carries ..read more

The previous episode shared about recognizing the need for closure when it comes to several incomplete relationships that I have been consumed by, since the age of 12 years of old. Unknowingly, these have had a negative impact in my life, recovery and spiritual walk. Those chains had been broken when I found closure atop a mountain in prayer. As the burdens lifted, life again throws some heartbreaking news in the mix. Because I choose to follow Jesus and live a life without substances, that does not make me immune to the pain and struggles of life. They do allow me to have another perspective ..read more

Emotions are insanely powerful. They are frightening, uncomfortable, likeable and confusing. They are part of the human experience to say the least. How does one come to terms with them, especially while in recovery, and the waves are relentlessly hitting? This episode shares my experience of processing a season of heavy emotions. They aren't necessarily new, but the fact that I am processing them clean and sober made them all the more real. During the processing of feelings, I was able to uncover a need for closure from the incomplete relationships that I have held on to. The question was pos ..read more

Changes in life are inevitable. Planned or unplanned. Career changes lead to new responsibilities and new stressors. Relationships open up vulnerability. Quitting smoking, leads to a whirl wind of emotions. All these changes quickly sprung up during this season of my life. This episode shares about insecurities, vulnerabilities, stress, and the ways I am overcoming to acceptance. Accepting that I am learning, growing, and making progress. Accepting that I will never have it perfect. Listen, relate, and find comfort knowing that you are not alone with the experiences you may have during this se ..read more

The premiere episode of season 2, kicks off with an emotional release of anger, hate, and blame. Unknowingly, I've allowed those elements to consume me. To hold me back. It wasn't until a a conversation with a friend, where they posed the question, "has that 13 year old boy, fully forgiven your mother?" May seem selfish, but truthfully, I hid those feeling so far within myself. 19 years later, I am finally able to let go and release those. Almost 3 years of clean time, and I am still healing. "One day at a time ..read more

Deaths from addiction are nothing but heartbreaking and unnecessary. Especially when help is readily available. Yet, they happen. This episode takes a stroll down 17th Ave and Colter to remind myself of some people I have meet during my active addiction. Regardless of what we may have been doing, they were/are good people that I have had in my life. Take a stroll with me and hear the encouragement you need to hear today ..read more

Self-condemning is one thing that I still struggle with today. My actions, my thoughts, what I've said or didn't, are all very deceiving when it comes to fueling the shame and guilt that lead to my self-condemning. I find comfort in the phrase "progress not perfection". Most of all, I am a Child of God and I find strength and comfort in His word. Knowing that I am forgiven is supremely what helps me overcome my self-condemning tendencies. Listen as I share my experience, strength and hope ..read more

My will is nothing but selfishness and chaos. I've lived 17 years of my will running wild to know that. Yesterday, I was spiritually weak and found myself fighting for my will to superceed God's will for me. It was nothing but fustration and pure ugliness. Little did I know, there was a bigger picture than only my perspective. God always had and will have a hand on everything that I do. Listen to hear how I was almost over taken by my negativity. Are you living by your will, or God's will ..read more

In this episode, we get a new perspective about the blessings and struggles that come along with recovery. Javen & Jordan join me in this episode of experience, strength and hope ..read more

"Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace." A beautiful piece of the serenity prayer that tends to be overlooked too often. In this episode, I speak about how a sudden depression has settled in these past few days. Seems fitting because I recently started facilitating "relapse prevention" classes. Did I take my own advice when it come to techniques to help prevent relapse? Listen to find out how I am getting through this season of my life. Be sure to check out recoveringmeth.com ..read more