[TW: Family loss, loss of a parent, eating disorders spec. bulimia] Hi everyone, I haven't made a post here on the forum since joining as I was trying to pick the spot where it might fit in the best. I think here because you all understand some of the problems cropping up. I've been a combination of anorexic and bulimic for 16 years. Which is hard to wrap my head around. I can't believe I've been doing this 16 years. That brings a little shame and humiliation to the situation because I... Read more ..read more

i have been away from my college town visiting home, and just got back from a trip to visit far away family. first, being home has been hard for me. i’ve never really “recovered”, but i had made some progress regarding my attitude toward eating. more like begrudgingly accepting i have to just do it than hating it. or trying, at least. however while i have been with my parents i have sort of regressed. the trip to visit relatives was extremely unpleasant and triggering. i felt 16 again, in... Read more ..read more

I was recently diagnosed with high functioning autism. I also have emotional dysregulation. I don't feel like eating. I'll have three tiny cups of porridge a day and that's it ( 3 teaspoons from each cup). Anyone else have autism and disordered eating? I wouldn't call in an "eating disorder" I have. Just disordered eating ..read more

My friend, who i happen to know for not so long, trusts me with some of her mental problems and the biggest one of them is an eating disorder. She's been struggling with it for quite a long time, and it've been hell for her, of course... The constant calorie count, excessive exercise, eating as little as possible, etc etc. I've talked with her about this. She is afraid of getting professional help because 1) the reaction from her parents and the fact they will control her diet (she's a... Read more ..read more

I don’t really eat anything I only eat 2 oranges a day.But to be honest I barely eat I just want to be skinny and pretty.I lost like 30 pounds I got so proud but every time I do eat.I feel guilty I feel like a piece of shit ..read more

I can’t really eat anymore I mean I kinda eat I only eat 2 oranges. I lost a ton of weight really fast in about a month I feel so guilty just eating something. Eating makes me feel like a piece of shit ..read more

Hi, I have a friend who I no longer see much as we live a distance away from each other. We meet every few months for dinner. She seems to eat fine when I’m with her but I feel she looks unhealthy slim. She shared with me a few years ago that she had recently had issues with control around eating and exercising, but we haven’t touched on it much since. During the last couple of times we’ve been for dinner she has left to go to the toilet. Possibly absolutely nothing, but I can’t help but... Read more ..read more

i tried so hard, i was so sick of this lifestyle, i saw ed therapists. nobody took me seriously. i packed lunches, i meal prepped, i fought tooth and nail and cried stressed about not eating enough for months. i made almost no progress. 10 days back home with no appetite inducing drugs and i’m fully off the deep end. fully committed to weight loss/shape mgmt again. lol. i don’t care about that anymore! i’ve lost my appetite and a bit of weight and i’m euphoric. i give up! i quit trying to... Read more ..read more

Heyyyyy everyone. I don't really know how this works I have never been a part of a forum before. Basically, I am in ED recovery. I never tried to restrict food but I continued to eat a normal amount even while I became addicted to exercise and exercised for hours a day cause I loved it to a fault. I had to go to the hospital for a week cause my heart rate was so low. Anyways, to the point. I am experiencing really really extreme hunger. It isn't like binge eating because it is not out of... Read more ..read more

Just came from my GP's He said there is noticeable weight loss just since last month. Today was the right day to have an appt. with him because I have been passing out all day and hurting myself. He said he's concerned b/c I live alone- Of course he wants me to increase my calories and my fluids but I did not agree to anything then and there. I was very thirsty when I got home. I was trying very hard to deny my thirst. Finally I broke down and had a Gatorade Zero. I am really supposed... Read more ..read more