Being a lover of a good mindgasm, I really enjoy getting caught up in new ideas and anything that challenges my sense of agency or self. The latest source of this mind satisfaction was quite surprising. In attendance at a presentation by Dr. John Hunter, Supporting Bipolar Disorder, this post slowly started to materialise. Dr. Hunter gives an incredibly insightful talk, and I can say that I learnt a great deal about bipolar disorder. Assuming that my understanding is enough – I never really investigated until directly impacted. Listening to others in attendance ask questions about family membe ..read more

Here we are, at the end of Janu-worry. The beginning of February confirming that the year is in full swing. While in the shops last week I saw the onslaught of red and white, the teddies, the heart shaped every-bloody-thing!!! Aaaah yes, Effing Valentine’s Day! Fear not! This year, I'll not rain on Cupid's parade. This year, St Valentine and I are vibing. I have been thinking so much about love lately. Not just about being in love but about living, speaking, acting in love. Love is the core of our emotional being; it is the glue of the cosmos and the catalyst for all things good. I'm learning ..read more

A million ''happy new year messages sent, resolutions cast in stone, and the wheels of business slowly creaking into motion as the world begins it's new beginning. Last year this time I was quite a different person. I look forward to the same time next year because I am loving the process of change. So, what can we expect from 2022? I see it in three clear phases. If I put my latest meditations and visons into a single word, it would be MAGIC. I feel as though (if we trust and make room), we will all experience magic in some or other form. Phase 1: Work! Anything is possible this year. Deep in ..read more

This year has been one hell of a ride, I have changed myself, my ways my beliefs and habits. Through the beauties of spirituality, meditation and trusting myself I have seen the most incredible things, inspired others, developed amazing skills and found a deep and long-overdue sense of pride in myself. Yeeesss maaannn!!!! With the end of 2021 in sight, I am sitting in nervous excitement. As far as years go, this has not been my favourite and I am ready to 'Sparta kick‘ it - but it has brought many things, good, bad, difficult and beautiful. I wouldn't wish it away, though there are a few thing ..read more

December means closing time for many and the joyous upshot of that is TIME. Time to shop, time spend with those we love, time to do things we just haven't gotten around to and -of course- time to spend with ourselves. Flash back to Who Needs Therapy where I wrote about Emotion and Body Code Therapy; ''I have not yet done this one, but I will definitely try and revert. With its roots in kinesiology, Emotion Code practitioners use manual muscle testing to find trapped negative emotions. They then bring them to the surface and remove them with magnets. That is a very basic definition but as I say ..read more

If you read my recent posts, you will be able to pick up on a theme. Frustration, stagnation, confusion, and a general lack of direction. It has been bugging me. With little to no guidance from Lilith I understand that I have to figure this out on my own. I keep getting a recurring vision. It’s me as I am and I feel the weight of the unrest in my heart - acutely, vividly. I seem to split apart and all that emerges from the inside of me is something soft and light. I don’t know what it is exactly, but I receive a message at the same time. “Emerge humble, as no one and who you are meant to be ..read more

I have come across so many reels, memes and videos about the hard parts of awakening. They all ring true, they are all relatable and strike varying chords with an assortment of people. I used to love those publications because they gave me what was (then) a much needed reassurance that I wasn't going crazy. The need to be alone, losing people, not caring about most of what you once considered important, laying down boundaries, to name a few. It's wonderful because we can read these texts when we are feeling at a loose end and be able to find solace or what seems to be a solution or way forward ..read more

It is no secret that I am not patient. It is the biggest challenge of my latest incarnation. That being said, I am better at it, still, I want what I want when I want it. ‍♀️This, very old shortcoming led to me getting stuck in a loop. The ‘WTF am I doing with my life?’ loop. I have been here before, but every time is a slightly different. My latest rotations were brought about by a sense of waste. Wasted time, wasted energy, wasted potential. I feel as though I have made some seriously flavourful changes to my life, but I’m still living the same vanilla existence. What am I actually chasing ..read more

We often hear that everything happens for a reason, or that things happen as they should. “It's all part of the journey”. I believe that I really do, but we cannot always see how the pieces fit together. Religious people will say it's their relevant Gods plan. Spiritual people will refer to divine timing and karma. We choose to be content in the knowing that one day it will make sense. Lately, I have been staring upon a blank canvas. I am starting over. It is, in truth - an intimidating place to be. My new beliefs about life and death have undoubtedly changed me. Although they bring a new sens ..read more

It’s been a rollercoaster lately. Really, I have been caught so off guard by the spiritual, physical, emotional events of late. Still, even when I'm knee deep in the drama that prevails, I have hope or faith or a knowing that I will come out the other side. I know I'll have learnt something new. I don't run the hamster wheel of pity and overthinking and, and, and. Though I do still sometimes find myself on it, I can see it, catch it, and get off. These are things that have come after years of work. It is not easy!!! Someone accused me of thinking I'm perfect. Ha haaaaa! Hysterical, I am (at be ..read more