Being a parent of a PDA child means that we have a much higher frequency of ‘No’ in our lives. No in PDA means that a force, difficult to pinpoint or explain, that lives and hovers somewhere in the shadows, rules many desires and serves to protect something much deeper than I have words to covey, governs on a micro level, everything and all. Avoidance is what is seen, but it runs so much more complicated than that. We are still to fully get what this all means, so in an attempt to contrast our Nos, many of us have surrendered, through necessity, to the fight with no and found ways to fully le ..read more

I thought I’d write again today. With so much noise, in one’s own head, in day-to-day activities, online, all around me, even waking me in the night sometimes with thoughts that won’t settle, worries that perpetuate, it can become almost addictive or automatic to not stop. I don’t know about you, but I am a social media junkie and I thirst for information that keeps me in a loop of curiosity and solution searching. This behaviour of mine allows me to form opinions and I’m never short of something to say after a few wines at a party. I delve into topics headfirst. Usually obsessing over one or ..read more

WordPress have notified me that my blog has been running for 7 years. 7 years! So, what better time to reflect on those 7 years and take a peek into the future and appreciate right now. I started this blog because when I was given a private diagnosis of PDA for my then 12 year old beloved daughter, there was very slim pickings for positive information and support. Writing seemed like the best therapy for me and I hoped that by holding a candle in the darkness, I could shine light and love for those who felt lost and those who would come after me in their own personal journeys and discoveries o ..read more

Loss of any kind shakes my soul. A part of me is diminished. Swept away in a tide of tears, even if those tears do not fall from my eyes. Feelings in my body as the electric connection is disrupted, short circuiting, searching for peace and flow again. Sharp, painful shocks manifesting as anger, fear, doubt, confusion. Question upon question bubbling around and around, searching for answers that might quell the discomfort and unease. Festering. Gnawing, frightening, unwanted visitor, go away. I don’t want to feel you. It hurts. If I just ignore it, or justify by blame outside of myself, then t ..read more

artist murphys sketches My Queen, our Queen. A human who chose her role on a soul level and came into her life to leave a lasting impression on us all. Whether you feel love for Queen Elizabeth II or you do not, it cannot be denied that her Majesty kept a promise for 70 years and saw her people through almost a century of changes and challenges. She did this with grace, faith, love and strength. If I leave this world and people can remember me with words such as truth, serenity, wisdom, consistency, stay, then I will be very proud indeed. I spent the first 34 years of my life in England and I ..read more

I am Mum to a PDA daughter and today I want to talk a little bit about the stage of life we are at. When we first became aware of PDA as a neurotype, my little one was only 12 years old. She fell into a breakdown at the same time as diagnosis and as such, we grew together as we journeyed her additional illness of OCD and we rode the waves of our lives. Many parents are out there oblivious that they are living as PDA and some discover PDA early on thanks to the growing awareness and the wonders of the connective technology we have these days. We all discover ourselves at different stages and i ..read more

I have decided to write a documentation of the next phase of my daughters health and wellbeing plan. Withdrawal from sertraline. In preparation for this, over the last 6 months, I have researched, read and planned based on the advice and experience of those who have supported, gone or are going through withdrawal. I have done this by joining Facebook support groups. I have read some books and received advice from our bio medical naturopath and I have engaged a homeopath who is pharmaceutically trained. With the additional support of a great GP, we feel as supported and confident as we can to e ..read more

My gosh, I’m so hooked into this I literally do not know if I’m coming or going. Yesterday the date opened up huge energies and potential for the new world. We have a choice between stepping into love, or letting the door close to the dark. It really does feel like it can go either way. From the friends and loved ones around me, to the leaders of the world, which way is it going to go? Or will we separate into 2 different, co existing realities? Or have we already done that? Are we living in 2 paradigms and could that be the answer as to why each side just cannot fathom the other? Predictions ..read more

I’ve not written for quite some time. Life on a personal level has been tough, though day to day I remain happy and ever hopeful. My daughters health declined over a period of about a year, slowly but surely slipping back to crisis, unable to function, leave the house, attend her last year of school or even get into a car without OCD taking up 90% of her actions. 2021 and all the chaos and restrictions from outside forces, paralleled the internal restrictions we have lived with for many years. For anyone who has followed me over the years, since her breakdown at aged 12, you will know that we ..read more

There are so many amazing layers to humans, to life. I am fascinated by all aspects of health and wellbeing. Not only because it helps me on my mission to be the best Mother for my kids and the best version of myself, but because there are so many wonderful ways to work on improvement and enjoyment of life. It’s becoming ever clearer to me how everything is connected and that by working on balancing and nurturing the different pockets of what makes us human, we can not just survive through life, but really thrive. There’s this thing called vibration. The energy field that we run and ommit to ..read more