
Tantric Disposition Matrix
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John Kendall Hawkins is an American ex-pat who currently resides in Australia. He's a California native who grew up in Missouri and Massachusetts. He studied English Lit and Philosophy as an undergrad. He has a B.A.and an M.Ed. from the University of Massachusetts, as well as four other post-graduate degrees in language-related areas. He has worked as a journalist, a bureaucrat, a teacher..
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
Covid Day Women #16 and #20
a nod (and a wink) to Dylan
by John Hawkins
Well, they’ll stone ya when you’re trying to be so lewd
They’ll stone ya just a-like they said they would
They’ll stone ya when you’re grabbing pussy moan
Then they’ll stone ya when you’re down there all alone
But I would not feel so all alone
Pencey, Pompey, pass the friggin bone
Well, they’ll stone ya for your Putin horsey porn
They’ll stone ya coz you’re silver spoony born
They’ll stone ya when you’re stompin’ on the law
They’ll stone ya when you calling Liz a squaw
But I would not fe ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
Thanksgiving at the Naders: Roast Thought with Stuffing
by John Kendall Hawkins
Sow the Seeds of Victory! Plant and raise your own vegetables
WWII-era Victory Garden slogan
Call before, you dig?
utility notification for unmarked Internet cables from hippy who finally got a job
The other day, minding my own business, and getting lots of unwanted help doing so, I got a welcome Tweet push from the 86 year old Ralph Nader inviting me to visit with him at Latitude Adjustment where he’d been interviewed about his new book, The Ralph Nader Family Cookbook: Classic Recipes from Leba ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
Abba Bina, aka Mr. Shit. Photo by John Hawkins
Straining in the new-fangled Roman outhouse, Titus was sitting there with a shit-eating grin, drawing conclusions on the wall:
Nero was here.
Nietzsche is peachy
For a good time call Viagara on DCI-MMI-CCCV.
Trombones featured in the third movement of his bowel symphony, a turgid presto, and he was complaining about the new toilet tax levied by his father, the emperor Vespasian. His Dad, just back from slaying all the usurers, had quipped, index finger skyward, like Socrates, “Pecunia non olet,” which is to say Money Doesn’t Stink. To which Titus ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
05/28/20 George Floyd protests in Minneapolis. NYTimes.
By John Kendall Hawkins
The riot squad is restless
They need somewhere to go
Bob Dylan, “Desolation Row”
Derek the chauvinist piggy
Up to his knee in neck
All coz George wanted a ciggy
And paid for a pack with dreck
Repeat: I can’t breathe, he said
I can’t breathe: sixteen times
a mindfulness exercise gone code red
Derek up to his neck in crimes
Lawdy, why, just yesterday it seems
We were modelling new Covid kerchiefs
On blue screen catwalks, zoom-zoom streams
Buffer zone fantasies, locked in like thieves ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
By John Kendall Hawkins
Those Ancient Men of Genius who rifled Nature by the Torch-Light of Reason even to her very Nudities, have been run a-ground in this unknown Channel; the Wind has blown out the Candle of Reason, and left them all in the Dark.
Daniel Defoe, The Storm (1704)
When author James Dunkerley tells would-be readers of Crusoe and his Consequences that the first thing they should do before reading his book is re-visit Defoe’s castaway saga, I let out a groan. Such re-reading is a sensible approach. But I never got over the many troubling questions I was left with after making ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
By John Kendall Hawkins
Since things and my body are made of the same stuff, vision must somehow come about in them; or yet again, their manifest visibility must be repeated in the body by a second visibility.
Merleau-Ponty, Eye and Mind
The opening line of “No Makeup,” the fourth poem in Sharon Olds’ new collection, Arias, chuckled me up some: “Maybe one reason I do not wear makeup is to scare people.” It’s funny, has a political edge, and gets you naughtily thinking about all the people out there hiding behind masks. (I saw a girl the other day and wondered whether all those Broadw ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
By John Kendall Hawkins
“And the day came / when the risk / to remain tight / in a bud / was more painful / than the risk / it took / to blossom.”
– Anaïs Nin, “Risk”
“April is the cruelest month, breeding / lilacs out of the dead land, mixing / memory and desire, stirring / dull roots with spring rain.”
– T. S. Eliot, “The Wasteland”
Lucid dreaming means to be aware that you are dreaming while doing so. Probably we’ve all had these kinds of dreams. Therapies have been built around lucid dreaming. Books have been written, sometimes equating it to an outer-body ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
by John Kendall Hawkins
“There is but one freedom, to put oneself right with death. After that, everything is possible.”
– Albert Camus, Notebooks, 1942-51
For those of us who grew up watching Charlton Heston films, we can recall enactments of heroic courage, both in the early development and later downward decline of human civilization. Heston gave us a magnificent Moses in The Ten Commandments (1956), returning all scraggly from the wilderness, like some people I knew in the Sixties returning from poetry communes, holding up that Decalogue in revolutionary resistance to t ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
OR Book Going Rouge
by John Kendall Hawkins
The world is too much with us; late and soon,
Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers;—
Little we see in Nature that is ours;
We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!
– William Wordsworth, “The World is Too Much With Us”
To Hell with the MIddle Class!
Oh, wait. They’re already there. At least that’s what David Roediger argues in his new book The Sinking Middle Class: A Political History. There is no there there worth saving. Fuck it.
What is it even? One minute it’s this, another minute it’s that. Did you e ..read more
Tantric Disposition Matrix
2y ago
by John Kendall Hawkins
“The history of mankind is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations on the part of man toward woman, having in direct object the establishment of an absolute tyranny over her.”
The Seneca Falls Declaration of Sentiments, 1848
A few weeks ago New Yorker magazine published a cartoon titled “Glass Ceiling,” which depicted a father and his little daughter looking out the window of an office high up in a skyscraper. The caption read, “Someday, all of this glass ceiling will be yours.” You chuckle, because it’s funny; but then you go ahead and think about it. Then ..read more