This episode touches on the lazy thinking that got me here in the first place and the abuse mindset that blazed the trail ..read more

This episode touches on some of my struggles with mental health, pleasing people that no longer care, and playing it safe ..read more

This one is a bit rambly and not edited well, but it needed to get out before I forgot. My melancholy is my mental health ..read more

This episode touches on why the branding change and where we go from here. This was supposed to get out a few weeks ago, but I was a little more melancholy than I expected ..read more

What happens when you face a world at 3 am? What happens when you face the end of everything while listening to someone chide you for being so weak and pathetic?  This episode touches on my feelings this week. I know this is tough for us all and we never get out of living alive. Still, it is an amazing moment to experience history ..read more

And why I am okay with this ..read more

This is still pushing buttons today, if I say so myself. Some people think you are a failure if you haven't "won" at quarantine. Some people think you are a bad person if you haven't sluffed off your mental health issues and got into a hobby to take your pain away. Some jus have no idea that people can be so limited or dumb. "Why merely survive?" Because that is what this pandemic is all about. We're all trying to survive. There is no winning, no finish line OTHER than flattening the curve. Even at that point, the virus doesn't go away.  So, where do you stand on this debate? (Forgive any ..read more

This is a reboot of sorts. It dawned on me how filtered out words like Mental Health and Depression are when it comes to the normal vernacular of the day. We can't talk about it without people believing we there is something wrong or that people have to save us. This is why I decided to soften the name and change the focus just slightly. It will still have the same idea behind it, but it will not be focused on what I have to vent about. Instead, it will be about building a better community and keeping each other propped up in the long run. Enjoy the show and me actually trying to be a podcaste ..read more

Sometimes it is hard to feel human in these tough times. We're short on money, short of patience, and long on time. We have all the time to compare against some fictional person or our flaws we can never fix. We spend more time beating ourselves up as we watch the walls close in all around us. I have to admit I struggle far too often when there ISN'T a pandemic, but that is just me. This episode might sound the same, but it is still a snapshot at the decay of our modern life. If you feel the same way, let me know on my socials ..read more

And these quarantine daze ..read more