So River bless her has been struggling quite badly recently with some skin problems . It all started a few months ago when she drank her milk it would drip down and sit in the folds in her neck making it red and saw. I tried my best with bibs and muslins but it still somehow made her neck really very sore so naturally we tried bathing it in plain water and using vaseline. But honestly it just got worse and worse so I made a doctors appoiment in hopes they could maybe give some cream to help which they did and it did actually help to begin with. But here we are months later and her skin is the ..read more

Goodness fucking grief, I’d like to know what on earth I did in a previous life to deserve this amount of sleeping fuckery from a 6 month old very cute but very angry little sleeper I call my daughter. Let me cast your mind back to June 2023 I’d just given birth and like all parents knew I was not going to get any sleep for the forseable future. But the most magical and unexpected thing happend. My bloody brillaint baby only went and slept through the night on her first ever night earth side! And the only way I realised was by the midwife waking me up at 7am to feed her! This has to be a fluke ..read more

Please brace yourself for what I am about to tell you. It is somewhat hilarious and unbelievable all at the same time. Now before I tell this story may I cast your mind back to a couple of years ago and point you in the direction of another post I’d written about potty training. “Going potty part 1” and my has it been a journey and a half since those much simpler times. Potty training is bar far THE hardest thing I’ve faced as a parent so far. We’ve started and stopped I don’t know how many times but it got to the point where Rex was approaching 4 years old and nearing starting school. So let ..read more

First of all Hello. How have you all been? It’s been a good few months since I’ve picked up my writing brain and written a blog post to be honest I’ve had bad writers block so I thought I’d fill you all in on what’s been happening. That’s right I’m still on maternity leave. I have 3 months left and I can’t quite believe how bloody quick it has gone! 5 whole months of loving my baby girl who still sleeps like an absolute queen may I add!! So maternity leave, what’s that been like? Slightly different to last time because my mum has a new job so she’s not around as much as before which makes me r ..read more

Nobody really tells you what life after losing a loved one well before their time is like, there’s no handbook on how to act or feel, it’s almost like you’ve been dumped in the forest with no map of how to get out. It’s long, it’s sad and it’s tireing and no matter how much you “try” to lead a normal life there’s always something in the back of your mind to remind you. In the days and weeks after losing Mike I remember thinking how am I ever going to live with this, how will I ever smile again and what path is our famlies lives about to take. Nobody tells you how incredibly difficult it is car ..read more

I’ve spoken about mental health before on this blog so I’m no stranger to writing down my feelings. And things have been going really well for me for quite a long time now. But since giving birth something has been bothering me and it’s gradually been getting worse and worse, my reasoning for talking about it today is in hopes it might make me feel abit better. I guess I could say I have had some anixetys in my life, But this time something really good has happend in my life I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, I have the family I’ve always wanted and mentally I’m in a good place. So why all ..read more

Now things have calmed down I’m going to write about what happend 2 nights ago. I’ve named this post scaredy pants but really it should be called fucking shitting myself pants. Friday was just a normal day, we’d gone to a party in the evening and had a really good time. When we got home hubby went to change Rivers nappy and instantly shouted at me to come and look at her legs. So I rushed in looking at her and the blood instantly drained from my body at what I was looking at. She had reddish purple rashes all over her little legs that had come on within the space of 2 hours. I did the thing we ..read more

The day begins early and already I have baby sick in my hair and wee on my leggings aswel as a small child hanging off my leg asking for breakfast. While the other one cries for milk. The decision on which one to feed first is always a battle in my head. So I quickly throw some shreddies and milk in a bowl and let the younger one dive in. Baby in one arm making milk with my second, dying for a wee and a cup of tea because as usual I’ve not had time to sit my bum down on the toilet seat or make myself a drink. finally feeding time peace at last they are both quiet and filling their tiny tummies ..read more

I guess I should really introduce you to the main little lady really shouldn’t I… So here goes… may in introduce to you River Sharon Valerie I guess I should start with explaining the meaning of her name. River had always been on my baby name list but it wasn’t really in my top 10. When we found out we were having a girl I had a few other names in my head that I really liked and in the end I managed to whittle my top 3 down to Annie, Esmé and River! Hubby loved the name River because apparently there’s someone in doctor who with that name. So that’s really where her name came about. As we’d ..read more

Before I start this post I’d like to let you know that this post is about breast feeding and will contain pictures of me breast feeding so if you don’t want to see that I suggest you stop reading now… I’m not afraid to say that I’ve always been a bit creeped out by breast feeding. To quote Rachel green “it’s juice squeezed from a person” so I’d already decided whilst I was pregnant i was going to bottle feed so we bought all the bits we needed to beable to do that. Then things took abit of a turn for me. It was mine and Rivers second night in hospital and we were having a really nice cuddle as ..read more