I am a person who is always driven by sadness and emotions, especially love, until college. I was not even interested in reading, let alone writing. I was only laser Focused on my studies. The only hobby I was interested in since I was a kid was photography. And the music was, and still actually, one of the ways I used to cope whenever things get unbearable, but never thought of writing. One day myself and my friend were at my friend’s house, and I saw them discussing the books they read, suggesting, borrowing, and lending books to each other, I sat there listening to them and the thought imme ..read more

Hello M.I, I hope you are alright, though I sometimes see that you are having a good time, other times I see you are unhappy and upset, that all I want to do is to text you and ask you “why aren’t you okay?” But it’s no longer possible. I knew it all from the content you upload. There is no other way for me now to know because we descended from lovers to just people who follow each other. I want you to know that I have been thinking about you a lot, not in an obsessive nor sickly way, but thinking about you the healthy way. Some days are better than others tho. Sometimes I feel okay with reali ..read more

Autumn, when the leaves leave their trees and choose another path, to give a chance for other ones to grow back, it enlightened in her the sense of sacrificing ourselves for others to live. It is a high-level way of thinking where you don’t put yourself a priority when it is not needed and when others’ lives are more important than yours for life to continue safely; it is the same concept soldiers live by. They look for the greater cause and not for what they want inside. Selflessness was something that always struck her thinking. Still contemplating through her room’s window, the leaves kept ..read more

لم اعد ارغب بالموت كما اعتاد في السابق، فليقبض الله روح متي شاء واين شاء لم اعد ابالي فقد اعتاد الحياة بمحازنها وانكساراتها الدائمة، اعتادت علي الحزن  فاصبح الفرح لي شي مخيف، بمجرد ظهوره يختفي في التو واللحظة  ..read more

And her insecurities hit when she sees you follow successful, beautiful girls on Instagram, the writer, the model, the gym freak, the traveler. Then you go about liking their photos, but after a few days, you unfollow them. She kept on wondering what happened during these days. Have you slipped into their DMs trying to get their attention and failed? Do you look up at them? Why me, if I am not enough? 45 Days (9). He has been traveling for a few days, and she can’t help but miss him every second it passes. “Do you miss me?” he asked. “Very.” She responded. After 30 minutes, when he was suppose ..read more

Billie who? I rather look like a skeleton  Blame me for not making a decision  Blame me for being unstable  Blame me for not meeting your expectations  Blame me for never being enough  Blame me for you abusing me Blame me for the life you put yourself through  I want to escape  Not to another dilemma  But to a safe place  I would still be stressed out “If you never try, you never know,” he said I can’t risk it right now Don’t blame me I will risk my life, but not you  Billie who? I will escape not out of desperation but out of a choice  I ..read more

Life goes on. The most cliche saying ever, yet the most accurate. We might feel like that life has stopped for us, so we subconsciously hit pause, because we can’t keep up with the pace of life, but that does not stop us from aging. And this is all part of living. Hitting pause or play, we are living either way, feeling our emotions from inside our body, thoughts which are generated from our brain factory all working during the pause time and it is part of living, there is no wasting of time, nor the days, nor the years. The real challenge is to hit play again, resuming life with the same enth ..read more

Life is like an anime series, the fights get tougher with every season, the level of difficulty increases as you progress, but as a result, the anime characters also get stronger, they develop physically and mentally in order to match up with the hardship they face. Except she is nowhere close to these anime characters. As life shows its sharp teeth, she gets weaker and mentally drained. She fell into the trap of bad habits in order to cope. She even might fall for the same mistake over and over again. The only thing that is common between her and the anime characters is the ability to smile d ..read more

Same pattern of thoughts Of people Of Conversations No need to distinguish They are all the same The ones you want The pattern in your head Living in a Dilemma Where circles never end You wish you break free But you keep wishing You can be a better you Still not enough for the dears It is hard to be a woman sometimes So much is expected from you It is hard to be me There is no place to fit in Perfectionism and competition Isolating myself away from expectations Away from the ones I thought I loved I will never be enough Appreciation and care I cannot see them I cannot see the authenticity What ..read more

And no it is not because I am ridiculously obsessed with high unattainable beauty standards, or to be model-like or because I want my face to look appealing to men, I simply don’t give a damn, if I felt confident on my skin then I would go out in the world careless about what the world thinks is beautiful. It goes deeper than this, and I never dared to open up about it because I always have the belief that if I did, I would simply confirm it, rather than work on changing it, but here I am. School I began realizing that I have issues with my face at a very early age. It all went back to terribl ..read more