Friends, it’s been a long time. Since July in fact. I’m wondering how y’all are making out. I’m…well…it’s hard to describe. Where do I even start? I’m thinking of you and hoping you are well. My mood is up and down. Can you relate? I’m grateful to still be here, hopeful for the future. I miss teaching yoga and am thinking about teaching online. Maybe I could meet some of you that way. When my kids are at their dad’s house I get lonely. I might go days without seeing another person. It’s SO WEIRD. Anyway…anybody out there ..read more

We went on some wonderful dates. First date: A twenty-mile bike ride. Second date: Kayaking on the lake, then sushi, then yoga on an outdoor covered stage during a thunderstorm. Third date: Rock climbing, swinging in my hammock, heart full of possibility. All dates: Amazing conversation, many points of common interest, lots of laughter. We had a fourth date last Thursday. He kissed me! I was thrilled! We talked about moving forward with each other. I felt myself falling in love! We made plans for Monday. And then… And then… Saturday came and there was no word from him. It was hard for me to en ..read more

Awakening to this day, I realize this is the only day. Breathing in this moment, I realize this is the only moment. Oh glorious freedom! I don’t need to lament the past or fear the future, because past and future are constructs of my mind— all that exists is NOW, everything happens in this one beautiful moment. Let us breathe deeply, together, then— let us awaken together. Let us feel this freedom together, on this day, in this moment, breathing this one breath. Peace ..read more

I don’t need to fix anything, change anything, or figure anything out. Wait a minute. Did I just say that? Yes! Yes I did! I don’t need to fix anything, change anything, or figure anything out. I DON’T NEED TO FIX ANYTHING, CHANGE ANYTHING, OR FIGURE ANYTHING OUT! It’s a miracle ..read more

My posts have been spotty of late, and my critical mind wants to lament and wail about my lack of discipline. Then the practical adult in me recounts what I’ve been doing with my days and nights and counters the critic with Now just where do you think we’d find the time to write when we’re not even getting enough time to sleep? The critic then makes it a bad thing to change my routine, to have a different schedule. It’s addicted to feelings of shame, anxiety, and unworthiness. It’s saying I need to go back to the way things were. But things aren’t the way they were. Not even a little. Things h ..read more

I’m so lost inside my prayers that night is day and day is night. I go out in the storm and seek refuge from the sun. My music disappears when I try to capture it, and flows abundantly when I relax into its release. The urge to create perfection is my enemy. Embracing my huamnness is my salve. May all beings be happy, healthy, peaceful and at ease ..read more

The inner critic creeps up and tries to interrupt the flow of peaceful thoughts that now stream through my mind quite regularly after years of meditation practice, prayer, determination, effort, discipline, will, twelve-step meetings, coaching, and therapy. I turn around and look at the critic. Oh. You again? Yeah. It’s me. You still suck. You’re terrible. Ah, my dear. Let me hold you. Let me rock you. Let me tell you how loved you are. Let me show you how, even after all this time, you are still enough ..read more

I allowed myself to be nourished today. I let myself wake up naturally. The sun was shining. I let myself be nourished by my home, the quiet, the comforts. I nourished my body with healthy food, plenty of water, a good walk outside, sunshine, fresh air. My heart was nourished by the warmth of a single mom friend who walked with me. Back home, I felt completely uninspired to cook myself dinner. I ordered in, paid for some kind soul to cook for me. This felt like a true luxury as the food was delivered to my door and I gave thanks many times as I ate. I let myself settle into rest earlier than n ..read more

I wake up and THE SUN IS SHINING! I’M ALIVE! What a gift this day is. Birds are singing, breeze is blowing and I pray to God giving thanks for this beautiful day. I give thanks for Divine Guidance, leading me to create what I am asked to create, steering me toward what is good, and true and sacred. And on a day like this, what isn’t good, true and sacred ..read more

Ok, so where to begin? I recently dodged two bullets and celebrated my close calls, having lived through three years of celibacy and discovering that I’d rather be alone than share my time with a man who cannot slow down, breathe, rest, and truly see me ..read more