I think there are two sides to what I have learned throughout my life spiritually, and those two sides see things very differently, but ultimately they are one thing. It’s just a little difficult to see that when you’re immersed in the exploration. One relates to what I believe is referred to as the Oneness of Being. This is a deeply liberating experience, joyful, blissful but stable, free. You realise there is only one essential quality and substance of consciousness throughout everything (at least everything that lives), and that it is not separatively located in space and time. All your ide ..read more

Back in December of 2018 I uploaded a video to YouTube called “Art, Porn and Puritanism”. It was on the subject of increasing restriction by moralistic and puritanical tech companies and platforms, and what I considered the infantilisation of the internet public. We had just witnessed the creepy CEO of Apple talk publicly about “sin” on the internet, and the need to take a proactive stance on this. Note, not crime, but sin. This initially got hit by YouTube for being an adult video, despite there being only opinion and critique, plus mention of artistic blogs marked as adult, and how censorshi ..read more

It’s obvious that the media we use in our lives can have a profound effect upon the societies we live in. We only have to think of the impact of the moveable type printing press which Johannes Gutenberg invented in 15th century Germany. This alone wrested a kind of power away from centralised control, and would make the dissemination of ideas, knowledge and written creative output accessible to so many more people. Jump forward about five centuries, and think about Television. I’m old enough to remember it still being cool in black and white, and conjectured as being a destroyer of family life ..read more

I was born with Saturn in the 8th house, Scorpio’s house, ruled by Pluto, and I think it probably gives a certain bite to your view of life. As in, you’re very aware of the poisons that life could hold for you. It’s not the most trusting placement in the world, and I’m guessing it loads the reptile brain in a certain kind of way. I never feel very far from that reptile brain somehow. Childhood is another land, and a land I refer back to in myself often (as in the things that meant something to me during childhood, and adolescence, the time during which childhood is dying so fragrantly), but in ..read more

There are things which you can only see, or feel, over time. It takes time to see the ways in which you don’t change. Time, and experience that is rough enough to defeat your “self-fictions”. Thankfully the nature of experience itself is rough, so it’s just a question of living long enough. Your life, as it arcs towards its circle, is a dark glass into which you at times get to gaze, and there are times when you get to look in the mirror and say “oh, that’s what I’m going to look like”. And it’s funny, because something as literally superficial is the actual face of all the crises and irresolu ..read more

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If there is one spiritual term which is abidingly dear to me, it is the term “witch“. Not that I have any great desire to “qualify” for a designation. Beyond a certain point, I find complex realities better served by description rather than definition. I’m not interested in the public declarations of identity, and of all things, witchcraft I feel points to a work of shadowy and luminous grace which surely defies ownership. It is a private garden of uncommon peace and strength, in communion with the world of spirits, magic and Nature. There are doors in the wall of that garden, hidden amongst t ..read more

Many homosexuals of my age will I think tell you how unrepresented we feel by what passes for “LGBT politics” nowadays. Not that it was ever great, but at one time it felt like a necessary evil. A lot of us despise the term “queer”. We don’t find it funny or smart. We never needed an academically approved word in order to claim our “outsider status”. We actually wanted to be able to live full lives, not live as political symbols, like some kid in a Che Guevara T shirt. There was always a lot that was awful about being around gay scenes, which is why some of us stayed away and went our own way ..read more

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