Never in my life have I dealt with anorexia, in fact usually when I’m depressed, I have a tendency to over eat. I’m not fat by any means. I’ve always been “thicker”, but have never been overly concerned about my weight and I usually work out 4-5 times a week solely because I genuinely love it. Anyway. 2 months ago I started exhibiting anorexic behaviors where I just do not eat. In that time, I’ve lost 30 lbs. I haven’t been able to work out because I have zero fuel in my body and I’m concerned it’ll make me pass out. I feel nauseous 24/7 and I can’t even imagine eating the things I usually lo ..read more

I was just average weight all of my (f55) adult life. No food issues, average activity level, didn’t give it any thought. 6 years ago got my bp2 diagnosis (textbook case) and started the medication game. Ended up on lithium which has brought precious stability for past 5 years. I’ve said lithium was the best thing that ever happened to me. Until now. The weight gain has become untenable. 50 pounds and still gaining. I’m post menopausal and that definitely does not help. But I look like I’m 9 months pregnant. I feel deformed. Passing by mirrors is truly traumatizing. Who is this huge person? W ..read more

maybe "forgetting" is not the right word, but especially the moment i get out of a depressive episode and i'm normal or hypo it's like the depressive episode didn't really happen or anyway it wasn't "that bad" and any other depressive episode i had previous to my latest one didn't ever happen. i mean, i know they happened, but i don't feel like they did or i don't feel like they count. it's like "i can't have possibly ever experienced that, i've always felt this good". i feel i gaslight myself every time i get out of a depressive episode. i kinda yearn depressive episodes. they are hell, but ..read more

I 24 F am diagnosed for almost 3 years now. Its been a rough journey but I understand myself a lot better and my past makes sense to me , until last night i was talking to a guy that I liked about my day (its still new so i haven’t really told him about my life) saying how it was bad and i was in a bad mood in the morning and then as it got better my mood changed. He laughed and said ”you’re bipolar or what ?“ He said it such a demeaning way like it was funny , I felt so ashamed of who I am. I feel like people will never people who stuggles woth bp as normal human being. And I am having a rea ..read more

Am coming up on 40 hours with no sleep and I found this cartoon. I feel so seen! Thanks Ren and Stimpy for the laugh ? submitted by /u/1radgirl [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Hi guys F19 , I’m not sure I’m just kinda thinking rn. I have a very vivid imagination; I don’t want to call myself a maladaptive daydreamer since there’s no way to get a diagnosis for that and I have never been diagnosed but a lot of those symptoms align with how music makes me feel. Especially when I’m obsessed with a new song, or a new scenario, I will think about it forever, and my brain will be going absolutely HAYWIRE. I have always been an overthinker . But after , I feel like I need to talk about every single one of these thoughts and it takes restraint for me from posting every ounce ..read more

I don't want to play this game anymore. Thought I was doing better, but I guess not because guess who's mildly interested in dying again? Yours truly. My therapist thinks I'm doing so much better and maybe I don't need therapy anymore, but I was basically just completely clammed up the entire time and definitely wasn't feeling super great that day. I'm probably going to have to lie to my psychiatrist in a few days to avoid getting hospitalized since she seems a little overeager to do that... I have a crap ton of stuff to do or my future is toast and about a week and a half to do it, but then ..read more

Hi all. After 21 years of ADHD and MDD treatment, I was given the news that I was misdiagnosed and am 100% Bipolar 2. I take Lexapro and recently began Vraylar with the new diagnoses and do feel some improvement in mood balance. Anyone else diagnosed later in adulthood? I kind of feel like I’m starting over. submitted by /u/bhshahan [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

just started taking lamotrigine (25mg) tonight. i took it at 10pm and it’s 11:40pm now. i don’t know if it’s anxiety about the side effects or if im actually reacting badly to it. this is on my neck and it’s itchy. my throat also feels achy and a lump in it can anyone clarify:/ submitted by /u/oxoxxcut [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Like the title says my memory has been going down hill and I’m only25 I am on Klonopin for Panic attacks so I’m aware that could be a cause but I don’t take it as often as I should submitted by /u/Trashacco [visit reddit] [comments ..read more