I recently had a supply source try to blackmail me as "an insurance policy" in order to enforce No Contact with me, after I devalued him. He basically threated to publically shame me on social media by telling people I used to use White Nationalist sites (this was over 7 years ago, and I was never involved in those movements offline and only posted occasionally). I used psychedelics and did some work on myself and stopped holding such beliefs. He himself is not white, and I only told him about because I thought I could trust him, and I wanted to show how much of a difference psychedelics made ..read more

I have been seeing someone for around 5 months, it’s been pretty up and down from day dot but we have loads in common and she ticks a lot of my boxes so to speak. I have a fearful avoidant attachment style and she leans quite anxious which can be triggering for me and my avoidance can trigger her also. I’m not sure if this is attachment related but I find my feelings for her can just switch off. It seems like unless I’m fighting to get her back I don’t really feel much. I’m not sure I’m capable of really loving someone and confuse it with the fear of losing them. Does anyone else get this? Ho ..read more

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I thought this could be interesting. Many people seem to enjoy painting pwNPD as this homogeneous group of people with no distinct differences between individuals. "They're all the same". So what are some things that you find about yourself that don't line up with these hollow caricatures of NPD? ​ I will start. ​ I've never flown into a rage at someone. In fact, anger isn't something that I tend to outwardly express at all. I am much more shame-prone than I am anger-prone. I have only outwardly expressed my anger a handful of times in my life, and even then, it can be difficult for me becaus ..read more

Im looking for a book to read and this one seems good. If anyone read it, let me know. submitted by /u/doctorium [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I don’t know if this is the right sub to post this kind of stuff on. I guess i just want some objective feedback about my dysfunctional relationship with my narc dad. I also don’t want to post on r/raisedbynarcissists because as someone with NPD I don’t feel welcome there. Is there a sub for both? Pls don’t tell me to go to therapy cause that’s a whole other can of worms - just looking for a Reddit sub submitted by /u/buchacats2 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

My whole childhood my mom would scream at me and criticize me for everything. The way I spoke, the words I used, the inflection of my voice, the look on my face, my mannerisms and interest. One of the worst ones was food. I’d get full easy and my stomach used to hurt when I ate too much. And in general food wasn’t a big deal to me. But if I told my mom I didn’t want seconds, or she found out I ate some other food in the cabinet I would get screamed at for it. She would take it so personally and berate me so viscously about it. Like me deciding what I wanted to eat was a personal attack on her ..read more

I got lots of colleagues and I struggle remembering faces and hence it's awkward to greet them because I cannot remember if I encountered the persin before. What if I greet someone I don't know or ignore someone I already met... i am confused. submitted by /u/Informal_Injury_6152 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

One thing coming up in therapy is this part of me - sometimes called an Anxious Parent Mode in Schema Therapy - that has been there for so long, since I was a child, and I believe it's a real root cause of a whole load of problems I've had in my life. Problems to do with my sense of identity, how I present myself to people, the paths I've chosen in terms of education and career; or just down to things like what I choose to wear, how I speak, what words I use, the tone and style of my voice, how I hold myself, how I walk, and probably much more. This Anxious Parent Mode is a kind of self-talk ..read more

So one of my core childhood wounds is the feeling of being wrong. Just me as a person, utterly and entirely fucking wrong. “You are too bad for this, you are not good enough, you should be ashamed of yourself.” “How dare you fucking act/be like this”, “you are wrong! Don’t you see what the others have?? Why can’t you be just like them??” and out of this developing this immense sense of shame and the self esteem issues and everything, really. Hearing these sentences over and over again breaks you as a child Anybody relate? submitted by /u/moldbellchains [visit reddit] [comments ..read more