Well, I posted a comment the other week about whether or not I should do an update to the blog and it seems that people would like to know how we're doing so here goes... Sunday 28th October would have been Nat's birthday and we're only a week  away from the anniversary of her death, so I am inevitably thinking back to where we were a year ago. Although there are certain moments and occurrences which I will never, ever forget, if I'm honest it's a bit of a blur, and I've looked back over the last couple of blog posts to remind myself of what went on and give some context.  Firstly ..read more

Hi everyone, this is Andy here again with what I hope will be a useful update for you. The clock has just clicked over into Mother's Day. Right now I'm in a hotel room in a small fishing town in the South West of Scotland. On my own but that's how I wanted it. I came across yesterday to carry out Nat's final wish, to have her ashes scattered at a beach near the town where we got married and where we subsequently had family holidays which gave us so much pleasure. I'll backtrack a bit. I didn't realise it was Mother's Day today when I organised to come over, but of course this makes it all th ..read more

Today is Boxing Day, 5 weeks and one day on from Nat's death. I have been mulling over whether or not to add to her blog, start my own, or just leave it alone. However, there were so many reactions to the "final post" that I recognised that some people may want to know how we have done, so here are definitely final thoughts, in no particular order.  We have had "Nat's Christmas" this year, as a result of it being too close to Christmas to really arrange anything different, and my own lack of energy to change things significantly. I have been reminded this last week that Christmas was ver ..read more

Hello everyone. This is Andy here. As promised, I am going to attempt to finish off Nat's blog as best I can. The first thing I should say is that Nat was hopeless with bookmarks, and it's taken me ages to even find the page... I have found the following short draft, which I'm guessing was written on 22nd October. It was the twins birthday on the 20th, and Nat had booked herself in to the hospice on the 16th for a few days to try and get her pain management under control.  "Happy Sunday morning to you all. Today I am writing to you from the hospice.  I came in for pain management ..read more

Hello all I am writing to you whilst scoffing bacon sandwiches, lovingly made by Mr H, and watching Homes Under the Hammer (one of my secret pleasures).  I'm sorry that the last blog was so bleak.  It was a blog that was already written it just hadn't been published.  It was always the most likely option being that miracles in my world seem to be highly lacking lately. I told you we were going to go to Scarborough to visit my Dad, Step Mum and the oldest two Hunters as they are on holiday there. Well we went regardless of the latest news.  I could be sat in my bedroom s ..read more

Hi all I'm home after another 8 days in hospital.  Basically once we were back from London the health professionals on my team up here felt that I needed to be admitted as I still had a temperature and my blood cultures were all over the place. So in I went. I was immediately put on a course of antibiotics and settled onto a small ward of four though there was just me and one other lady at this point. I am not sure how much of how I feel now is still down to the sepsis.  My sense of taste has changed, food tastes strange and therefore I enjoy it less. I also feel like I am perman ..read more

Where do I start? I've had quite a time of it over the past fortnight. We managed to get a week away, all of us without incident.  I had to remember to pack all my medical things (all new to me) but we made it.  We stayed in a little lodge in Northumberland and just relaxed, did a little sightseeing and laid in most days. The children played outside in the big courtyard, it was nice just sitting watching them play on their scooters.  Carefree. Some good friends visited the region once we were home, they have twin boys the same age so it was lovely for the boys to all play to ..read more

Hi all. I am currently surrounded by noise.  Twin related play noise.  So it is good but I wish they would quieten a little, I'm trying to listen about the slow loris' on the telly. I have a spare five minutes so I thought I would do a quick blog, about life back home.  Life not in the hospital. Hospital's have a timetable which you have to fit into.  Breakfast at around 7am followed by first pill run, Lunch around 1pm followed again by tablet run then tea/dinner and yet another tablet run.  Punctuated in between by observations i.e. blood pressure, pulse check and ..read more

Hello all! I have no excuses.  I have been lax and should have attempted a blog before now.  Lets face it, there has been ample opportunity with the amount of time I have spent in hospital or hospice.  Maybe I should have been blogging instead of watching back episodes of Supervet. Thing is.  I just didn't feel like it.  I couldn't seem to raise the energy to get the laptop out or the energy to get my brain moving.  I guess you could blame that on drugs or really being incapable (which on some occasions would have been true) but there were truly times that I was ..read more

Hi to you all, It's a rainy Monday morning, the boys are playing in their new matching batman onesies I bought them, we have politics on the television and me and Mr H are sitting on the sofa together listening to the politicians whilst occasionally referring the boys play. Over the past month I seem to have been in and out of hospital like a yo-yo.  The infection I kept getting in my kidneys finally made it's presence really known. I got sepsis.  Not nice.  Getting Rigors is not much fun, your whole body goes into spasm as your temperature rises and your immune system goes in ..read more