Today our drama group, I included, will perform the show One is not crazy to stay at home. I slept very long this morning and I feel ready as one could be. I even had some fantasies last night about the possibilities of my future acting career. We are ready as one can be. I invited everyone but it seems that nobody would come due to the flu that is circulating around these days in Croatia. I am not too sad about it. Last night was the last rehearsal and I did not do everything properly. I hope that I will be better tonight. The acting really makes me happy. That is completely another world for ..read more

Today was a particularly good day regarding sleeping. I slept until 7, walked the dog and did some work and chorus and now I am off to the bathroom to wash myself up and get ready for the rest of the day. It was very tense yesterday. Brother and I finalized the contract regarding our late father’s house and hopefully it will be paid in a month’s time. In the morning I realised what a heavy burden it was that for me and having that done I believe my sleep will improve. I had a negative experience with psychotherapy this week because I had hardly any sleep on Tuesday and it took me two days to c ..read more

Type soon.I have managed to sleep until almost six this morning and it seems I am on the good way to be back in solid remission. The 300 mg of Lithium helped me psychologically but again I have a problem with not being secure when I am walking. We have psychotherapy again this Tuesday and I will bring out this question, actually my worries not to fall again. The week was very good. I have managed to resolve most of the issues that were brought upon me. Even in the house there is a normal atmosphere but I am firmly sticking to the boundaries that were put upon me and the same goes with boundari ..read more

A lot has been happening to me lately. Sharing my home with my mum is not easy for me. New set of rules are here and my freedom is limited for the next few months. However, having back 300 mg lithium per day has calmed me down although my sleep is still not in order as it should be. The problem with Lithium is that in my walking I am again now and then in danger of falling The show with my acting group is approaching very quickly. We will perform on November 26 and from the last rehearsal I see that we will be ready. The newcomers in the group have brought such wonderful energy and I sincerely ..read more

It seems that the storm has passed regarding my illness. I finally got up in decent hours today, did some ironing and walked my dogs. Yes there is a plural regarding dogs. My mum returned from the cottage house and brought along a dog and two cats last Sunday. It was chaotic for my dog and me. Rocky and I were lost. It took us almost six day to catch up with the new routine. My psychiatrist almost three weeks ago gave me 300 mg of Lithium again (150 mg in the morning and 150 mg in the evening). In spite of being angry about this increase of therapy today I can finally admit that she was right ..read more

These days I have been very busy. I have managed to find a lot of work with EU projects funds and did the job and already collected the money for it. All the customers I have found in the local community and all these people know that I have schizophrenia. However they gave me the opportunity to do that for them and the money was already on their accounts yesterday for the received funds. Jobs well done bring other jobs and all day long today I am working on getting funds for a new set of customers. It was exhausting for me, but I think I have done everything properly and people will get the m ..read more

On Friday I went with my younger nephew to the circus. We went because he never attended a circus show. The tickets were expensive but it was really worth it. The show was something to remember. The acrobats were skilled, the clown was very funny and the animals were adorable. What I liked the most was a fire show. It was like being in a movie. Life these days is like a movie itself for me. I did some EU projects for the new clients, I was in a church a few nights and on psychotherapy I spoke about my problems without bragging how successful I am in solving them. There were tears there because ..read more

It is an early morning for me. I can not go for a walk because in the next half an hour or so the potato man will come and I have to be at home. I am a bit restless and here he comes. Potatoes and cabbage are here. In the mean time I have already walked the dog, done some work and in a minute I will have a cup of coffee with my older nephew. He needs to find a job and I will help if he is willing to have my assistance. Last week Lithium was decreased to 150 mg and in ten days the plan is to be totally without it. Last Saturday I went to the island of Rab in Croatia with a friend of mine and hi ..read more

In front of me is a busy day. I got up very early, did my hour walk with my dog and a second coffee is in front of me, and after blogging, off I go. But before starting the day I had to process yesterday. At the psychotherapy group I met a woman that I was shortly acquainted in the past (when I was looking for a partner at the catholic church in the year of 2007 or 2008) and as it turned out that she wrote a wonderful book called The rose tea (author name is Karla Kuzle) about her very difficult experience with schizophrenia. I went to the capital to get the book in the public library and ..read more

Graduation party was three days ago and today I have finally finished cleaning the house and yard. I also worked a lot today and went for a walk with my dog. Lunch is cooked in a minute and I am going to eat it and then I am taking some rest. The feelings about my nephew’s masters degree are still mixed. I am proud of him for being persistent and willing to accept my help in early years of studying. There are other things on my mind. I am going on a very first date in a year. I was utterly faithful to my ex partner hoping that he would return but as he found a new girlfriend I realize that I h ..read more