From the bottom of my heart, sincerely, thank you all so much. I made this blog back in 2016 after I had a dream one night. I woke up from that dream and realized that we as a society need to talk about schizophrenia. Because so many people with schizophrenia feel alone and isolated because of living in a society that finds it easier to label us as “crazy” than to try to offer us even one single hand to help. My friends, through this blog and through all my life experiences ever since I had that dream, I can tell you with full confidence that you are not alone in what you are going through. Th ..read more

Hello everyone! It’s been far too long since I’ve made a blog post here, and I apologize for that. I hope today finds you all well. In the time I’ve been gone, I’ve worked as a peer support specialist at two jobs, unfortunately lost both due to my mental health, had a puppy for a brief period of time, and done a lot of preparation to marry the love of my life in October.  That’s the funny thing about life. You never know where it’s going to take you. Always make sure you’re strapped in for the ride and be prepared for road blocks and wrong turns. They’re inevitable, after all, and we can’t con ..read more

The faces could be caused by a variety of things; I can only speak from personal experiences since I’m not a doctor. It could be related to psychosis, it could be related to sleep (perhaps a lack of sleep? falling asleep?), it could be your eyes adjusting to the dark or your brain trying to make sense of things (I believe the term is pareidolia), etc. I’d definitely recommend seeing a psychiatrist if you aren’t already, as you mention you also experience delusions and two instances of tactile hallucinations along with the faces. A psychiatrist will be able to give a lot more insight as to what ..read more

Not stupid at all. I’m not a psychologist so I don’t know the brain-y details, but from experience I know schizophrenia can really make processing things difficult, for different reasons. From my own experiences, schizophrenia likes to sometimes throw in extra words while thinking or change the train of thought completely, thus making processing incoming information a lot harder. There’s also thought-blocking, which pretty much means your brain turns off thinking completely or makes thinking or even doing something physically incredibly difficult, and again making processing information a lot ..read more

There’s a reason the “road to recovery” is called a “road”. It’s a journey- a long, continuous journey. There will be bumps in the road, and sometimes you’ll fall down, but you have to get up and keep going. The first few steps you take on this road will be the hardest, because it is so unfamiliar and new. The further you travel, the stronger you get, the more endurance you build, and the more wisdom you gather.  The first steps on this road are the hardest. They are terrifying, like stepping into a bed of sharp rocks. With no way of knowing what’s ahead, it takes a lot of courage to take thos ..read more

Always! I might not respond immediately but I do respond when I can. Feel free to send a private or anonymous message; if you prefer the message to remain private, I am more than happy to oblige ..read more

Yes it is! I am sorry for not posting new content for a while- I’ve been busy with many real life things. I do check the blog daily, though ..read more

Hi there! My blog is still active, I check it daily. :) I have not written new content in a while but I’m definitely still here ..read more

Hey there! One thing I recommend is called the “three 3′s”. It’s a grounding technique where you describe three things you can hear, three things you can see, and three things you can touch (if you can’t do three, it’s ok!) The point is to focus on what you -know- is real instead of what may or may not be real. Your cat could actually be really good for this! Describe how your cat looks, listen to the cat purr and meow, feel the soft fur, etc. If you start questioning if your thoughts are delusional or not, focus on your cat (or something else real). I also recently discovered how helpful puz ..read more

(This is a post that’s going to veer away from my usual format of blog posts, but it is a collection of things I think need to be said about psychosis and thought disorders)If you have a thought disorder and/or psychotic symptoms:You’re not crazy.Having psychotic symptoms is nothing to be ashamed of.Your symptoms are not your fault.I know it’s hard. Hard to deal with symptoms that creep into every aspect of our lives; that leave us unable to distinguish what’s real or not and leave us unable to think thoughts that make sense. These symptoms are severe and relentless. The suffering is real- it ..read more