Through middle and highschool I suffered long with an eating disorder going days without eating actual food. 3 years ago I started my recovery. I got motivated to cook and eat-- to gain weight and actually look healthy. My energy came back and I actually was eating 3 meals a day and weighed a healthy amount. Meal moths. I genuinely want to cry thinking about them. Their larvae was in all my dry food. I went to make French toast and noticed them all over the bread. All the boxes of cereal were practically alive with them moving through them. Anything in those cabinets were infested. Even thoug ..read more

for context: i had a pretty bad ed all through middle school then, starting around my freshman year, i started counting calories in what i thought was a "healthy" way. i would track all my macros and stuff but, because i ate enough, i never thought that it was an issue. then more recently (im a junior in high school now) ive found that i was thinking about food, exercise, and numbers constantly. so im trying to work on intuitive-ish eating, only tracking my protein intake and just focusing on balance. but ive only been doing it for a couple weeks and i feel like im already gaining weight. i s ..read more

I had oatmeal and rice for dinner-lunch! I haven't eaten more than a little bit in a while, which would quickly be thrown up, but I did it! (Im anorexic and have bulimia, so this is a lot of progress for me, even though i still feel guilty.) submitted by /u/Waste_Lab8953 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I had oatmeal and rice for dinner-lunch! I haven't eaten more than a little bit in a while, which would quickly be thrown up, but I did it! (Im anorexic and have bulimia, so this is a lot of progress for me, even though i still feel guilty.) submitted by /u/Waste_Lab8953 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

After some weight restoration my skintone has darkened and im so happy im not paper white anymore ?? Ive became 3-4 shades darker in my concealer and im embracing it submitted by /u/AnxiousSharks [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

Heyy, although i havent been clinically diagnosed having an ED, i've been struggling with food guilt. I know that something a lot of people struggle with, including me. Every time i eat more than 2 meals, i'll feel guilty, or if i have one too many snacks in between meals, may they be healthy. Ive completely cut out junk food for 3 months, the thought of eating anything unhealthy now just scares me. Not like fear but like, how will i cope with the guilt that will come after? Sometimes i let myself go after once in a while, that guilt too dissolves with the appropriate amount of exercise. I'm ..read more

Hi guys. I will study from home for 3,5 weeks from Monday. I am so scared. And i will sit a lot. Feel a lot of stress and because of that binge or at least struggle to stop. The feeling of beeing trapped in my apartment is scary. To sit and write all day. And beeing scared that I can’t control myself. And if I binge I feel that I need to excersise and then I have no time to write. It feels like I will die. I will try to have this as a plan- my only assignment is to handle the food in a good way. Eating too much isn’t worth it. That’s my goal. I am so f tired of this, to be afraid of myself ev ..read more

my best friend is in recovery for her second time. i really need help in my own issues surrounding EDs but i don’t want to tell her because i’m afraid it could be triggering or put too much stress on her during this already very stressful time. should i reach out and tell her soon or wait until she’s more further along in her recovery? submitted by /u/Loose-Yellow4679 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

I see a lot of people saying they are in recovery, but very few who are recovered. i am worried that I might never reach full recovery, and will always struggle with this. for people who woule say they are recovered, how do you know when you are? submitted by /u/chocomilkshake765 [visit reddit] [comments ..read more

at what point did you find eating felt natural or that you found a good menu that suited you? what steps did you take to find the right menu for you (working with nutritionist, learning the science behind food, trying different diet lifestyles like keto, etc)? because i feel even more sluggish and hungry now that ive been eating for a while and it feels like im putting together a puzzle using pieces from 100 different boxes. please give me your advice on finding the right fit of recovery for you submitted by /u/somehowstillalivelol [visit reddit] [comments ..read more