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escalierssansfin: Today’s reminder to thank your own body for protecting you and for everything that it does. More than just a body, it give you the abilities to heal, to discover the world, to feel and to live your life at it’s fullest. It is the best vessel for your beautiful soul and you need to take great care of it ..read more

When I’m about to leave urgent care for something completely unrelated to weight, and the nurse hands me discharge paperwork with my weight and BMI in bold at the top ..read more

Often people have trouble understanding that just because you’re recovered, doesn’t mean you’re done struggling. Here are some things that may never go away~ -Choking on pills because your gag reflex is permanently fucked up -Infertility, or inability to have children due to the potential of life-threatening health complications -Permanently messed up orthostatics (dizziness when standing abruptly, even in recovery) -Heart issues -Chronic fatigue -Brittle hair -Compromised immune system I have been working hard at practicing radial acceptance. It’s okay to not be okay. Survival often means ba ..read more

When I’m staying with friends/family and they always ask why I always need a latte in the morning and won’t just drink the coffee from the coffee pot ..read more

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It’s been a long time since I’ve answered questions like this Recovering on your own is infinitely more difficult than having a support system, a dietitian at the bare minimum. It’s vital to have people, especially medical professionals, who can hold you accountable. In the meantime, I highly recommend the Recovery Record app. The Rise Up app is another great option. They’re both completely free, and it has a LOT of coping skills and motivation tactics. I know this isn’t a perfect answer. I wish I could give you a magic cure. Unfortunately, we don’t have one yet :( just know that you are not a ..read more

*TW* An inside look for anyone who doesn’t know what it’s like in the head of someone with an eating disorder, of for anyone who thinks it’s just a fear of getting fat~ Me: Lunch today will be leftover pasta Brain: pOiSoN Me: I literally just ate it yesterday, it’s not poisonous Brain: PoIsIoN will DIE Me: Bruh I’m a millennial, I yearn for death anyway Brain: paSta KILL nO oNe lOvEs YoU are  a l o n e I eat the pasta. I don’t die. Everything is quiet for a few hours. Then we repeat at dinner ..read more

After going AWOL for like a year, I’ve finally made the decision to reinstate this blog, and move to Patreon. Link will be posted soon ..read more

I am always available for venting ..read more